"baby, you aint the first"

[fertlemind]

it sucks, you know.
this feeling i have.
as if i spend more time learning about other peoples lives and shit than i spend on actually living.
i spend all my time working or going to school, doing stuff to make life better in the future.

future?!
what fucking future?!
im going to be in school for fucking years for a doctorate!!!

shit, man.
i didnt even really get a childhood, and im so fucking ready to throw away my young adulthood.

i shouldnt even be doing this.
i have a paper to write.

yay for socrates.
yay for a vengeful eros.
yay for the fact that in the end, we're still dead.