Who needs slepp!
It is 2 am and I have just cleaned my kitchen. I am happy with the results by and large, it's not perfect but it is a vast improvement.
That said I have no idea what drives my insomnia, tonight is the least stressed or run down that I have felt in weeks, yet I still can't sleep. I feel as though a part of my brain is cordoned off from any form of exploration, conscious contemplation or by meditation or hypnosis. It reminds me of a part in the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy when Zaphod Beeblebrox by means of exceedingly circuitous investigative techniques determined that part of his brain(s) had more or less had their input/output pathways cauterized and now thought those particular lobes still lived and functioned he in no way could be aware of what they contained or did. To extend the analogy to its breaking point I have to wonder if this “thing” that I cannot seem to get past is also like Zaphod's brain cauterization a self inflicted thing. I really don't know.
All in all insomnia aside I am well, busy, looking for a job, feeling like I'm not looking for a job hard enough, but well.
May be I'll give real update at some point, who knows.
That said I have no idea what drives my insomnia, tonight is the least stressed or run down that I have felt in weeks, yet I still can't sleep. I feel as though a part of my brain is cordoned off from any form of exploration, conscious contemplation or by meditation or hypnosis. It reminds me of a part in the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy when Zaphod Beeblebrox by means of exceedingly circuitous investigative techniques determined that part of his brain(s) had more or less had their input/output pathways cauterized and now thought those particular lobes still lived and functioned he in no way could be aware of what they contained or did. To extend the analogy to its breaking point I have to wonder if this “thing” that I cannot seem to get past is also like Zaphod's brain cauterization a self inflicted thing. I really don't know.
All in all insomnia aside I am well, busy, looking for a job, feeling like I'm not looking for a job hard enough, but well.
May be I'll give real update at some point, who knows.