why? How?
why do i have to find the guy that i think i could date only to have him ripped from my grips just after i get to know enough about him.... I finally find a guy that I am sincerely interested in dating, not just b/c i want a b/f, but b/c i have a serious interest in........ and he's getting torn away from me.... why me?? Why now? It's not fair!
How did i manage to find someone so interesting and date-able in only a matter of a few days??? I seriously only knew him for a total of like a week and a half.... and I wanted to date him.... I wanted to hang out and get to know him and see where things could go.... How can i have this much of an urge to date someone so quickly??? I just don't understand....
How did i get the dates so fucked up??? I thought i heard september - then talking to him tonight i find out that he leaving sooner than that... like much much sooner..... as in wednesday, like a whole 2 not even three days away!!!!!!!! WTF????
How can i be that fucking stupid, that i switched things up that badly?? This fucking sucks!!!! Here i thought i could sneak in a date (not a super serious this has to become a relationship date - more of a just to hang out one and one and get to know you better date).... so much for that.... I thouhgt i had more time.... apparently I was a little off... so now it's down to letters and online conversation... which isn't all bad, but damn!!!! I wasn't expecting to be down to that so fast.... shitty luck i guess....