pessimist blog '12
i hope to get over this thing where i stare confusedly at everyone who says something to me. right now, i'm caught in between understanding, but never being able to say anything back. i just sit around and blink at people. you can only say, "das ist gut", or laugh and say, "ja", so many times before it's like, oh my god. where is my vocabulary? i'm copping out, too, by speaking english, but i get really unnerved by long pauses. plus, i can't construct a simple sentence on my feet. i've been asking questions only after i've written them down and checked the grammar.
best thing i've said today: "Wörter, aber keine Sätze". PROGRESS. there were some other things too, but they were stilted and weird. i start classes tomorrow and, really, i need all the help i can get. you never really realize how communication encourages or discourages doing things until you can't. i've just sort of stopped talking. i don't like it. i nod a lot. if everyone could just write everything down, i would be set. i would be SO set.
random musing: don't participate in an immersion program with your guy friend because then everyone thinks you're dating or about-to-date. it's a bit of a cockblock, just saying. EIN FREUND VON MIR. VON MIR. why must 'Freund' double as 'boyfriend'? second random musing: does reading german-language fic count as studying? yes? good.
update on the best thing i've said today: "Ich spreche meinen Eltern um sechs Uhr mit." HELL YEAH. ALSO: MY MUBI SWITCHED ITSELF TO MUBI EUROPE. THAT WAS A SHOCK. OH MY GOD, I GET BETTER MOVIES HERE. AND I HAVE FREE CREDIT. *runs off*
best thing i've said today: "Wörter, aber keine Sätze". PROGRESS. there were some other things too, but they were stilted and weird. i start classes tomorrow and, really, i need all the help i can get. you never really realize how communication encourages or discourages doing things until you can't. i've just sort of stopped talking. i don't like it. i nod a lot. if everyone could just write everything down, i would be set. i would be SO set.
random musing: don't participate in an immersion program with your guy friend because then everyone thinks you're dating or about-to-date. it's a bit of a cockblock, just saying. EIN FREUND VON MIR. VON MIR. why must 'Freund' double as 'boyfriend'? second random musing: does reading german-language fic count as studying? yes? good.
update on the best thing i've said today: "Ich spreche meinen Eltern um sechs Uhr mit." HELL YEAH. ALSO: MY MUBI SWITCHED ITSELF TO MUBI EUROPE. THAT WAS A SHOCK. OH MY GOD, I GET BETTER MOVIES HERE. AND I HAVE FREE CREDIT. *runs off*