not to be emo but...

[ferraribassguy7]

today started off as well as i could have hoped. i was suppose to wake up early and go help chris paint a shed for 10:00 but i woke up at 10:15. by the time we got britt and got started it was half past twelve and we didnt get much done. after that the day consisted of a long rehearsal at tims house for the show tomorrow. then we all went seperate ways for an hour before chris and megan picked me up at home and then we got britt and went to anna's play at nashua south... funny stuff. well, tag in the parking lot was fun and the ride home wasnt half bad. we were going to go to abbys but megan had to be home somewhat early, chris was tired and britt suddenly got invited to go to some girls house that she just met. i thought id be hanging out with them but i guess not. i went home got my truck and went to abby's to find out that everyone had decided to leave. now im here before midnight, bored out of my fucking mind, thinking about college and how im gonna miss certain people and just feeling ditched, pissed off and sad cuz i know i only have a month and a half left and i have nothing to do but think about it. sorry if this is not as cheery and you may be used to from me. i'm sure ill be fine tomorrow. i also dont mean to blame anyone for anything. im just a little upset and dont want to do something foolish.

anyway, j. beaners show tomorrow. we're going on about 9ish. in the morning i might help bryan with hay if i wake up and then possibly painting again.

all i can do is count the days.. 43 til im class of '09 at colby-sawyer.