Random Thoughts...
--i wanna cry
why?
--bcuz: 1.volleyball, 2.i miss a few people i cant see anymore, 3.i miss my bffs-you know the twins and bree-yeah i miss them real bad, 4.growing up scares me.
--i'm confused
why?
--bcuz: i need to figure out what i am going to do in the summer. i got 2 diff thigns in the mail and i dont know which one i really want to do. its hard to explain. no one knows that i have thought of being a model you could say ever since i was little, ya along with being a vet, but i mean if i ever was i could save that money up for college. which will be so much easier. but there is also the big let down at risk.. like i got a miss michigan thing in the mail the other day and i have 10 days to register if i want...but then i also got a thing to go to either DC, San Diego, Boston, or Chicago for 10 days in the summer to study some stuff about medicine..which is sooo cool. but the model thing cost bout $400, plus the clothes i gotta buy, and the med thing cost $2,000 plus plane tickets. Pros for Med-2 college credits, awsome experience, something i want to do. Pros for Model-Not as much money, something i have always wanted to try, i think it would be soo much fun. Cons for Med-a whole lotta cash!, not exactly for vet med, gotta go on a plane by myself, kinda scared. Cons for Model-Losing sucks, i'm not that pretty- i mean i'm not ugly, but come on now i know that i'm not that pretty.
so i dont know...but i have like 7 days to figure it out. cuz there is a deadline for the model thing...ahhh....give some advice if you have it...dont post an anonoymus one either and be all gay, cuz that is just retarded.
...but other than that i guess you could say i'm alright. i mean i should be right.
*something i've realized--when someone askes "how are you" hardly anyone is ever honest..
10th grade sucks.
i miss volleyball, fun volleyball.
i love cameron. i really love him. after next year scares me...real bad. like if we're still together we are suppposed to go on some type of break for when he goes to college and when i graduate if we are still in love we will get back together, well that freaks me out...
well i have apush to study for, which i should have been doing for the past 20 minutes. but oh well..i dont care.
leave one.
why?
--bcuz: 1.volleyball, 2.i miss a few people i cant see anymore, 3.i miss my bffs-you know the twins and bree-yeah i miss them real bad, 4.growing up scares me.
--i'm confused
why?
--bcuz: i need to figure out what i am going to do in the summer. i got 2 diff thigns in the mail and i dont know which one i really want to do. its hard to explain. no one knows that i have thought of being a model you could say ever since i was little, ya along with being a vet, but i mean if i ever was i could save that money up for college. which will be so much easier. but there is also the big let down at risk.. like i got a miss michigan thing in the mail the other day and i have 10 days to register if i want...but then i also got a thing to go to either DC, San Diego, Boston, or Chicago for 10 days in the summer to study some stuff about medicine..which is sooo cool. but the model thing cost bout $400, plus the clothes i gotta buy, and the med thing cost $2,000 plus plane tickets. Pros for Med-2 college credits, awsome experience, something i want to do. Pros for Model-Not as much money, something i have always wanted to try, i think it would be soo much fun. Cons for Med-a whole lotta cash!, not exactly for vet med, gotta go on a plane by myself, kinda scared. Cons for Model-Losing sucks, i'm not that pretty- i mean i'm not ugly, but come on now i know that i'm not that pretty.
so i dont know...but i have like 7 days to figure it out. cuz there is a deadline for the model thing...ahhh....give some advice if you have it...dont post an anonoymus one either and be all gay, cuz that is just retarded.
...but other than that i guess you could say i'm alright. i mean i should be right.
*something i've realized--when someone askes "how are you" hardly anyone is ever honest..
10th grade sucks.
i miss volleyball, fun volleyball.
i love cameron. i really love him. after next year scares me...real bad. like if we're still together we are suppposed to go on some type of break for when he goes to college and when i graduate if we are still in love we will get back together, well that freaks me out...
well i have apush to study for, which i should have been doing for the past 20 minutes. but oh well..i dont care.
leave one.