Drastic
I'm sure the readers here are more than familiar with this theme, but I've been feeling overwhelmed lately. By the future. I know what I want to do, and I think I can do it (though that worry's there too). It's how to go about it. I need to make the decision very soon as to whether I'm applying for Film school in the fall. I want to go to that one in Canada, and I think I'll be accepted and everything. It's just that I don't have much money. Almost none, in fact. I'm making some now, but not enough. My mom keeps telling me that I should wait a year, work full time (though I have much less confidence in my full-time job-finding skills), then apply. She says "hardly anyone goes straight to grad school". Except absolutely everyone I know, I guess. Tonight, Marissa agreed with her. But it feels... wrong. And I can't escape the creeping idea that if I do this it will never, NEVER happen. I'm hemming and hawing on it, and I'm panicking because that gives me that "never happen" feeling, too.
So... in other, less drastic news, school is back in session. I totally flaked on my screenplay, partially because of recent "Watchers" crises, partially because I have a severe case of senioritis. By great coincidence, I found out this week I made the Dean's List. Unseasonably warm today. I wore a coat even so, mostly because I discovered in the past couple days that a black coat and sunglasses is "my look". I'm such a dork.
"Heroes" this week was very good, yet again. That show's got it nailed. Malcolm McDowell's appearance as Lindermann was spectacular. "Battlestar Galactica" had a riveting episode (to me... other people thought it was boring) about Apollo and the lawyer for Baltar's trial. The lawyer was played very... strangely by the guy who played Badger on "Firefly". (I also have been watching an episode of "The X-Files" where he plays a guy who can... control fire or something, literally as I write this).
I'm busy and yet at loose ends. I'm going a little crazy.
So... in other, less drastic news, school is back in session. I totally flaked on my screenplay, partially because of recent "Watchers" crises, partially because I have a severe case of senioritis. By great coincidence, I found out this week I made the Dean's List. Unseasonably warm today. I wore a coat even so, mostly because I discovered in the past couple days that a black coat and sunglasses is "my look". I'm such a dork.
"Heroes" this week was very good, yet again. That show's got it nailed. Malcolm McDowell's appearance as Lindermann was spectacular. "Battlestar Galactica" had a riveting episode (to me... other people thought it was boring) about Apollo and the lawyer for Baltar's trial. The lawyer was played very... strangely by the guy who played Badger on "Firefly". (I also have been watching an episode of "The X-Files" where he plays a guy who can... control fire or something, literally as I write this).
I'm busy and yet at loose ends. I'm going a little crazy.