I'm apologizing. I meant for the journal to be private and I guess I clicked the wrong button. It was wrong of me. I also wanted to explain myself a little in case you'd read some of it.
I think you are good at layout. I wrote otherwise that first week when you and Sarah were at elbows that first week. I suck big time at layout, but you do not. If we had more pictures and more stories, I'd totally steal your gray bar thing.
Andrew frustrated me because I the power dynamic made me feel uncomfortable. I like him - though I was blisteringly angry for awhile because I felt he was crowding my turf. I managed to get it so the tribes would call us and not the valley journal or even the Char-Koostah by working on my relationship with the government. It was hard to change the perception the tribes had of us, and I was proud of the (small) progress I had made. For Andrew to come in, especially on the National Bison Range negotiations which I had spent the past year covering, and take over my territory without talking to me or finding out the work I had already done infuriated me. (Not that I'd done much work or found anything good on the nbr...that issue was rough. I'd call and email on it once a month and get so little.)
I felt uncomfortable saying anything because I felt that I would be up against two people, not one, and one person was my boss. I probably misjudged you and him but I didn't know you and I wanted to be cautious. Andrew was doing a good job and I didn't feel like there was anything wrong, any obvious favoritism, but it was just a situation with so much that could go wrong with no warning that it gave me the feeling of tip-toeing around on eggshells. I was nervous about the whole situation up until the day I left. If I wasn't planning on leaving soon anyway, I would have talked to you about it. I had a job offer in the wings and was just about to submit my two weeks' notice when I got this offer.
And now I feel horrible. I wanted to let you know that I grew to like you both, especially you, who I honestly did grow close to in the last few weeks, and please disregard my stupidity. If you don't like me much now, I understand. It was a mistake. It was unprofessional. It was stupid ranting to friends I miss very much. I'm a drama queen sometimes.
I think you are good at layout. I wrote otherwise that first week when you and Sarah were at elbows that first week. I suck big time at layout, but you do not. If we had more pictures and more stories, I'd totally steal your gray bar thing.
Andrew frustrated me because I the power dynamic made me feel uncomfortable. I like him - though I was blisteringly angry for awhile because I felt he was crowding my turf. I managed to get it so the tribes would call us and not the valley journal or even the Char-Koostah by working on my relationship with the government. It was hard to change the perception the tribes had of us, and I was proud of the (small) progress I had made. For Andrew to come in, especially on the National Bison Range negotiations which I had spent the past year covering, and take over my territory without talking to me or finding out the work I had already done infuriated me. (Not that I'd done much work or found anything good on the nbr...that issue was rough. I'd call and email on it once a month and get so little.)
I felt uncomfortable saying anything because I felt that I would be up against two people, not one, and one person was my boss. I probably misjudged you and him but I didn't know you and I wanted to be cautious. Andrew was doing a good job and I didn't feel like there was anything wrong, any obvious favoritism, but it was just a situation with so much that could go wrong with no warning that it gave me the feeling of tip-toeing around on eggshells. I was nervous about the whole situation up until the day I left. If I wasn't planning on leaving soon anyway, I would have talked to you about it. I had a job offer in the wings and was just about to submit my two weeks' notice when I got this offer.
And now I feel horrible. I wanted to let you know that I grew to like you both, especially you, who I honestly did grow close to in the last few weeks, and please disregard my stupidity. If you don't like me much now, I understand. It was a mistake. It was unprofessional. It was stupid ranting to friends I miss very much. I'm a drama queen sometimes.
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