update....something i haven't done in a while
Well, the past week overall just sucked, but the worst crap was saturday. Nick had left to his house for a party that was supposed to happen for his step-father-wannabe. Turns out it is saturday the 12th not the 5th. At any rate, he goes off on his own to think about an important decision that he had to make that he hadn't told Scott or I was even in the cards. Scott needs the lebaron, which nick was driving, so he could go to work and called his house looking for him. Nick's little brother said he wasn't there and then we get a call back from his mother saying she hadn't seen him all day. We become worried because Nick has disappeared off the face of the earth and all we knew was that he was supposed to be at his old house. We call around for him, I called Angel and she said she hadn't seen him but thought that he may have gone to some job interview thing. I called Tony to see if he had seen him and he said Nick and Angel went to Hancock fabrics to catch the end of a sale. so now I am thinking that I'm being lied to for no apparent reason by both Nick and Angel and since I can't get ahold of Nick anywhere or Angel on her home phone, i call her cell and ask why she is lying. She told me she wasn't lying blah blah blah. I said sure, then why is tony telling me you both went to Hancock's. Angel insists in a loud pleading voice that she isn't lying without hearing why I think she was and then made the mistake of saying "we're not lying." I pointed this out and she got mad saying she didn't say that, mistake or not. By now, I am definitely thinking i am being lied to so i say i needed nick home so scott could go to work, thanked her and hung up. Later I am at work and Nick shows up giving me a death glare all pissed and the first thing he says, "you of all people should know i go to the park to think!" He was pissed because apparently Angel cried when I hung up on her because I had upset her so much. i told him he scared the hell out of scott and i because for all we knew he was dead in a ditch somewhere. he didn't appologize or anything but left in a huff after i asked him to bring Angel to the store so i could feed them and appologize. when i get home from work five hours later, Nick is wandering the streets, i pick him up and head to the house and he is still angry at me and still no appologizing for worrying us and no words of forgiveness for my reasonable annoyance and thoughts of being lied to when i appologized for jumping to conclusions. I still can't get a hold of angel to appologize to her, but i did leave a message on her cell phone making a quick apology and asking her to call me. After i appologized to nick in the car he told me why he had gone to the park to think (which I had no reason to think he would have gone there in the first place when we were looking for him). apparently, johnny offered him a job on the condition that he move back home. Nick decided to accept and moved sunday afternoon saying to me saturday night, "know that I am not leaving out of anger." Him leaving upset my mother because she likes him and thinks of him as a non-biological son. It is now Tuesday and i haven't heard from Nick since he and scott left to take his stuff to the old house sunday afternoon. Please don't tell me I have lost two more friends and compatriots. I love Nick and Angel as siblings. Whether they like it or not, I am tied to them anyway because of history, but I don't want to be in the background, never seen nor heard. I don't want to lose more people. i don't want to be alone. --LC