Damn it!
I really wasn't going to be depressed for a while. haha I mean, its been a wonderful past few weeks - but, yeah, alot of things have just come crashing in on me, and I just can't deal with them.
I feel really horrible. There are a ton of things I just can't talk about with anyone anymore - I feel lost and alone. I was looking at my facebook friends list a lil while ago; I can honestly say I talk to maybe 8 people on a regular basis. And even then...
You know I love you. Dont ever question that.
Damn it! I'm not supposed to be sad! I'm getting tons of good things coming my way - way more than I deserve, btw. What the fuck is this? Why am I feeling down?
Why do I feel alone when I know there are 5 people right now I could call and they'd be there for me?
Why doesn't anyone understand that sometimes my cheeriness is as just like finely spun glass - beautiful, but completely see through and brittle. Damn it. Damn it. DAMN IT!
I honestly have no idea why I'm posting this. I think this is just an easy way for me to put down these feelings that I can't express to any one person, to any one thing. Honestly, casual observers, I'm not a depressed person. I'm happy.
Just not right now.
Hmm. Maybe those masks are coming off... We shall see.
-Fernando. Maybe some more names soon.
I feel really horrible. There are a ton of things I just can't talk about with anyone anymore - I feel lost and alone. I was looking at my facebook friends list a lil while ago; I can honestly say I talk to maybe 8 people on a regular basis. And even then...
You know I love you. Dont ever question that.
Damn it! I'm not supposed to be sad! I'm getting tons of good things coming my way - way more than I deserve, btw. What the fuck is this? Why am I feeling down?
Why do I feel alone when I know there are 5 people right now I could call and they'd be there for me?
Why doesn't anyone understand that sometimes my cheeriness is as just like finely spun glass - beautiful, but completely see through and brittle. Damn it. Damn it. DAMN IT!
I honestly have no idea why I'm posting this. I think this is just an easy way for me to put down these feelings that I can't express to any one person, to any one thing. Honestly, casual observers, I'm not a depressed person. I'm happy.
Just not right now.
Hmm. Maybe those masks are coming off... We shall see.
-Fernando. Maybe some more names soon.