I hate somebody.
I had an amazing few days. Its been full of me hanging out with Christin, watching Buffy, being giddy and happy and full of joy. And then talking to Him, giggling and just laughign at how stupid we are to not be together, but realize that we can't so we're just gonna be friends, but realize taht we should.
Tonight I went out to Inergy, a gay club. It was really fun. I danced with like 15 people, made out with a few... It was fun. haha I'm not a slut, really... I can't help it if people like dancing!
I got really drunk and called Him. He's being stupid. He's being retarded. I hate him. I hate it when he fucking treats me like I'm some child that he needs to tell what's going on, as if I'm just retarded and can't get it on my own. I hate him. I HATE HIM.
But I love him. I'm not beign stupid and deluding myself, for once. I know how I feel, and I know how he fucking feels, however fuckign much he wants to hide it with emotionless responses.
I hate him.
I love him.
Lo odio lo amo lo odio lo amo. eh eh ehe.
Fernando Javier Cosmas Olivares Salinas, Jr.
Tonight I went out to Inergy, a gay club. It was really fun. I danced with like 15 people, made out with a few... It was fun. haha I'm not a slut, really... I can't help it if people like dancing!
I got really drunk and called Him. He's being stupid. He's being retarded. I hate him. I hate it when he fucking treats me like I'm some child that he needs to tell what's going on, as if I'm just retarded and can't get it on my own. I hate him. I HATE HIM.
But I love him. I'm not beign stupid and deluding myself, for once. I know how I feel, and I know how he fucking feels, however fuckign much he wants to hide it with emotionless responses.
I hate him.
I love him.
Lo odio lo amo lo odio lo amo. eh eh ehe.
Fernando Javier Cosmas Olivares Salinas, Jr.