Remember me?
It's been forever since I've posted. I dont feel like putting my emotions for everyone to see anymore. Sorry.
But, tonight... its different. I stayed at Rice for about a week after almost everyone, except for one very important boyfriend, left my world. This in turn has given me plenty of time to think and meditate.
I dont know what I want. This is very odd. I usually know exactly what I want. But, right now, I'm uber confused. I even used the word uber. I'm not sad, but... I'm not happy. I'm not satisfied. My emotions are a jumble.
I have people I care about. George, Sarah, Dave, Christin... My four points of sanity/extreme happiness at Rice. Matt, Ale, Michael, Sarah, Sarah, Tasha... People who make me realize that I'm not just a faceless blurb in reality. Kari, Isabel... My two best friends from beyond time... Who now I realize are better than I ever thought they were.
I have things I care about. My job... The kiddies that I teach. My family! Oh my God, I love them. I care about them immensely.
I'm thinking about becoming pre-law. I dunno how to do that. But yeah, I think I'd be a good lawyer. Elle Woods, minus the pink and estrogen.
In one week, two relationships fell through. One, you know about. The other, no one who knows thought would last. I did. And it hurt to have it end... But, we're friends now. And... I'm dealing with it.
I went home for a wedding. It was really fun, and I missed seeing all those people that I never see. They were pretty much the same people that I left a long time ago.
I finished reading the Da Vinci Code. Can't see why it took the country by storm. It was a very good book... But, not storm worthy.
It feels good to be alone for a while. And its also very surprising to me that I dont feel lonely. I guess... I've finally become aware that there are people out there who love me... and I dont have to hear it every 5 seconds to believe it. Thanks, you guys, for helping me realize this.
Meh, I'm not depressed. I'm just feeling a lil blue. Like... Something has come to an end. I know what has come to an end... But those things shouldn't have made me blue.
I think I'm gonna start filling this thing in more often. I prolly won't, tho... I hate sounding whiny.
But eh. I need to whine to somebody.
Wait... I already do.
tee-hee Thanks for letting me whine.
Y'all have a wonderful day.
I'm Fernando Javier Cosmas Olivares Salinas, Jr., boy wonder.
Well... I do wonder.
But, tonight... its different. I stayed at Rice for about a week after almost everyone, except for one very important boyfriend, left my world. This in turn has given me plenty of time to think and meditate.
I dont know what I want. This is very odd. I usually know exactly what I want. But, right now, I'm uber confused. I even used the word uber. I'm not sad, but... I'm not happy. I'm not satisfied. My emotions are a jumble.
I have people I care about. George, Sarah, Dave, Christin... My four points of sanity/extreme happiness at Rice. Matt, Ale, Michael, Sarah, Sarah, Tasha... People who make me realize that I'm not just a faceless blurb in reality. Kari, Isabel... My two best friends from beyond time... Who now I realize are better than I ever thought they were.
I have things I care about. My job... The kiddies that I teach. My family! Oh my God, I love them. I care about them immensely.
I'm thinking about becoming pre-law. I dunno how to do that. But yeah, I think I'd be a good lawyer. Elle Woods, minus the pink and estrogen.
In one week, two relationships fell through. One, you know about. The other, no one who knows thought would last. I did. And it hurt to have it end... But, we're friends now. And... I'm dealing with it.
I went home for a wedding. It was really fun, and I missed seeing all those people that I never see. They were pretty much the same people that I left a long time ago.
I finished reading the Da Vinci Code. Can't see why it took the country by storm. It was a very good book... But, not storm worthy.
It feels good to be alone for a while. And its also very surprising to me that I dont feel lonely. I guess... I've finally become aware that there are people out there who love me... and I dont have to hear it every 5 seconds to believe it. Thanks, you guys, for helping me realize this.
Meh, I'm not depressed. I'm just feeling a lil blue. Like... Something has come to an end. I know what has come to an end... But those things shouldn't have made me blue.
I think I'm gonna start filling this thing in more often. I prolly won't, tho... I hate sounding whiny.
But eh. I need to whine to somebody.
Wait... I already do.
tee-hee Thanks for letting me whine.
Y'all have a wonderful day.
I'm Fernando Javier Cosmas Olivares Salinas, Jr., boy wonder.
Well... I do wonder.