stupid.
that was stupid.
hell, I'm stupid.
this whole damn thing is stupid.
maybe life is just stupid.
I want to post to forums, but I'm afraid I'll get trapped into that again, and I can't use any more self-abuse, honestly. which is strange, because I know it would just give me that rush of control and good feelings, even if they quickly dissolve into "gawd you suck".
come home, johnny, come home. say your prayers and go to sleep and wake up and you'll love me.
(except he does fucking love me. he just loves her. more. damn.)
::/endrant
hell, I'm stupid.
this whole damn thing is stupid.
maybe life is just stupid.
I want to post to forums, but I'm afraid I'll get trapped into that again, and I can't use any more self-abuse, honestly. which is strange, because I know it would just give me that rush of control and good feelings, even if they quickly dissolve into "gawd you suck".
come home, johnny, come home. say your prayers and go to sleep and wake up and you'll love me.
(except he does fucking love me. he just loves her. more. damn.)
::/endrant