so confused
I let myself fall for someone amazing... and now I think I've fallen too far. And that someone isn't there/ready to catch me. And now I spend hours upon hours thinking about what I could have possibly done that screwed it all up. And I spend hours upon hours justifying everything that doesn't seem right, just to try to make myself feel better about the situation. And what sucks the most is that all of this could be a lot easier if I wasn't an emotional idiot, who reads into everything way too much. And if I had the courage to just ask...
I had every intention of going on a walk tonight, with Josh and Kelly, but then the rain got in the way.
I'm really not sad, or depressed, or what have you. I'm just upset that things didn't turn out exactly the way I would have liked. I guess I was expecting too much, too soon. Things were truly amazing for a while. I suppose things can only get better from here on out. At least that's what I'm hoping for...
I guess a few smiles wouldn't hurt. Maybe some hugs... a wink?
I had every intention of going on a walk tonight, with Josh and Kelly, but then the rain got in the way.
I'm really not sad, or depressed, or what have you. I'm just upset that things didn't turn out exactly the way I would have liked. I guess I was expecting too much, too soon. Things were truly amazing for a while. I suppose things can only get better from here on out. At least that's what I'm hoping for...
I guess a few smiles wouldn't hurt. Maybe some hugs... a wink?