stroke brain sucks
I am on a FB group for caretakers and from reading this, I know that I have it so much easier than most. With that said, I know my limitations and I am so ill-equipped sometimes to keep my cool and to not allow frustrations to get out of hand. Last night I worked over 2 hours trying to restore Ed's iPhone to factory reset due to his forgetting his passcode and thus, rending the phone inoperable for anything other than receiving calls. Finally, I gave up. This morning I tried again and yep...erased and was able to start again, only to find out that since our phones are linked (?)...he has all my contacts on his phone. So I'm hoping a trip to the AT&T store will be a save and not having to go to the Apple store itself.
He has erased all this week's shows that I watch on the weekend because I can't seem to stay awake and thus...I got irritated. This is not acceptable for him as he lashes out trying to tell me that divorce is an option (after making plans for a vow renewal on our anniversary in November). So...I had to actually write the damn shows down...DON'T ERASE~~one show on Sunday, one show on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday...I can watch them on my laptop, but with commercials.
Sometimes it is such a struggle, but when I look at friends' troubles (2 w/newly diagnosed breast cancer and then the FB Caretaker page), I'm left feeling....well...why am I griping? It's simple....we all have our own level of coping...some people are stronger than others and I've realized I can help others and listen well, but for myself...not so well.
Not meeting my goals at work and seeing in red "FAILING SCORECARD" puts me in a funk and then coming home to a not-so-easy life with Ed is making me cranky and feeling so inadequate and just plain sad.
As my pastor once said in a sermon...."Life is difficult and seldom fair. Get used to it."
meh
He has erased all this week's shows that I watch on the weekend because I can't seem to stay awake and thus...I got irritated. This is not acceptable for him as he lashes out trying to tell me that divorce is an option (after making plans for a vow renewal on our anniversary in November). So...I had to actually write the damn shows down...DON'T ERASE~~one show on Sunday, one show on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday...I can watch them on my laptop, but with commercials.
Sometimes it is such a struggle, but when I look at friends' troubles (2 w/newly diagnosed breast cancer and then the FB Caretaker page), I'm left feeling....well...why am I griping? It's simple....we all have our own level of coping...some people are stronger than others and I've realized I can help others and listen well, but for myself...not so well.
Not meeting my goals at work and seeing in red "FAILING SCORECARD" puts me in a funk and then coming home to a not-so-easy life with Ed is making me cranky and feeling so inadequate and just plain sad.
As my pastor once said in a sermon...."Life is difficult and seldom fair. Get used to it."
meh