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I'm so thankful that I have a job that takes so much energy....there is none left to give once I get home. I have not really had a conversation with my husband for at least a week. Last night I asked me "can we now stop fighting?" .. how can people fight when there is not much talking going on? I fill his daily and weekly A.M. and P.M. reminder box...he didn't take yesterday's morning pills. He said it was because he didn't eat breakfast. He went to the dentist and had very low blood pressure and had trouble walking into the office. The office even called 911 when Dr. Jenn couldn't get a BP reading on him...I guess it is a good thing he didn't take his pills because he takes two BP pills to keep his BP down so his heart doesn't work hard due to his aortic valve leak and the dissection grafts. He had been getting dinner ready but this week, he has not done that at all. Now, this is fine, but I'd like to know ahead of time so that I can get a dinner ready. Everything is frozen or we have frozen Marie Callander meals in the freezer. Last night since he spent the whole damn dany on the couch, I made a frozen pizza. I thought I asked him if he took his pills and he said yes, but this morning when I was feeding the cats, I noticed he hadn't. So...I feel he's regressed and now I need to make sure that I get his ass up earlier than 6:30 and make sure he eats breakfast. I don't care if it's a damn cup of yogurt...he has to take those pills. This taking care of him is making me a crabby and unfeeling bitch. He's aged at last 15 years since thes stroke, so I guess maybe that's where the anger comes.
I've made an appointment with my regular therapist for Saturday. I'm hoping that she will be able to help. I'm not sure anybody can help with this stuff. I guess if I had had children it may have been a bit different. I have no patience for this.
A couple of weeks ago he was making dinner, doing laundry, and now he has no energy. I just don't know what is going on. He says he doesn't feel good (telling his cardiologist this yesterday) and gets up and a bit agitated, but the only thing she does is ask if it's his heart....doesn't ask many other questions so there is still no answer. I'm so frustrated with his physicians too.
I'm just so over this today. Maybe it will be better later since it is so early in the morning. I have peace and quiet, but starting the day realizing all this stuff isn't good either. Ah, the best thing that can happen today is that I meet my goals. I don't need to "exceed the goals" ... like many customer care associates have performed, but for me...it's getting calls down to 5 minutes and 15 seconds. Below 5 minutes is "exceeding goals"...
I've made an appointment with my regular therapist for Saturday. I'm hoping that she will be able to help. I'm not sure anybody can help with this stuff. I guess if I had had children it may have been a bit different. I have no patience for this.
A couple of weeks ago he was making dinner, doing laundry, and now he has no energy. I just don't know what is going on. He says he doesn't feel good (telling his cardiologist this yesterday) and gets up and a bit agitated, but the only thing she does is ask if it's his heart....doesn't ask many other questions so there is still no answer. I'm so frustrated with his physicians too.
I'm just so over this today. Maybe it will be better later since it is so early in the morning. I have peace and quiet, but starting the day realizing all this stuff isn't good either. Ah, the best thing that can happen today is that I meet my goals. I don't need to "exceed the goals" ... like many customer care associates have performed, but for me...it's getting calls down to 5 minutes and 15 seconds. Below 5 minutes is "exceeding goals"...