I'm a fangirl without a fandom.

[fera_festiva]

So I’ve been thinking a lot recently about the nature of being a fangirl and about being into a fandom and how it feels and what it does to you. This came about because I was trying to explain to my sister and her boyfriend what it is to be a fan, because they were asking the kind of questions I often get asked by my family, like "Are you still

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[o_deanna]

You are a genius. This is an absolute work of art and I am proud to call you my friend.

You are so unbelievably spot on. With everything, the difference between music fandom and other fandoms. All of it. Every single word.

Yeah, Red Dwarf and I were totally childhood sweethearts too, and it felt like it would last forever. I remember taking the videos with me on holiday, even though I knew there was no video player, just because I couldn't bear to be parted from them. I was lucky that in school there were two other girls who obsessed over it too. And we had a character each, I had Rimmer - my choice, shut up, I really need to scan in my diary to share with you, it is something to behold. Anyway, Red Dwarf ended up being an idiot and disappointing me in front of the whole class and I was embarrassed that everyone knew we'd been dating. (I'm spotting a pattern with my fandoms here). I grew up.

I wrote self insert fanfic for Dad's Army, which I shan't even dignify with a relationship analogy. Let's just say I had it bad for Pike and

[o_deanna]

I feel exactly the same way as you about Harry Potter and Merlin and I'm in a very similar place right now.

My problem is that my current fandom would be Battlestar Galactica. But it's over, it's dead and I can't even hunt for any kind of fandom post because I'm scared of finding spoilers. It was the same with Twin Peaks if they were airing now I would be squeeing and speculating and shipping. As it stands poor old Jim and Jamie (who has already seen the whole thing) have to listen to me whine about my couples being split up and my weird crushes on bald old men and "omg, what if this happens?"

I'm the same as you with Supernatural too. I'm really enjoying it, but the ship has sailed! I'm only on Season Two. It's so sad that fandom is so active, but I can't be a part of it.

And then there's Mass Effect and Dragon Age fandom, which I have to stay away from because the fanfic is mainly bad. And I feel kinda jealous, because I ship the characters with ME! So I don't want to read about them getting it on with someone else's character, y

[forest_rose]

If I needed more evidence that you and I are soulmates, the Dad's Army Pike-crushing self-insert fic would be it. I thought I was the only one! ♥

[fera_festiva]

This synchronicity is both hilarious and adorable.

[fera_festiva]

*hugs you a million* I don't even know where to begin with you being lovely to me, so I'm just going to use my most affectionate icon and hope that does the trick. ♥

I LOVE THAT YOU WROTE DAD'S ARMY FIC. I used to love Pike too, although I think I was too young then for it even to occur to me that we could snuggle (I used to watch it with my Dad when I was quite small). How much of a Sue was your character, then? Did she have emerald eyes and long, midnight-black hair? XD

Meanwhile I love your analogies. Star Trek TNG as a dull older guy? Ha, yes! And Niles/Daphne... I rooted for them so hard at one point (although I wasn't quite a fangirl, if you see what I mean). Rachel and Ross in Friends, too, and I remember squeeing like a mad person when they finally kissed, and god knows that one ended up a total fucking farce (although it took so long to get there that I didn't care by the time it did).

Red Dwarf ended up being an idiot and disappointing me in front of the whole classLet me guess - series seven? Unless you held out longer