ghosts of Alma College
Do you know what I like to do? What I would do if I didn't have to earn a living or eat or move, I would read.
So what on earth am I doing in physics and theater!?!
I feel like a ghost. I'm already dead but my spirit keeps going through the same routins. Sometimes people ask me if I'm alright and I just shrug it off and say I'm tired. I wish people would leave me alone, or not leave me alone. Either stay the fuck out of my life or take a real interest in my life other than the socialy obligated 'how ya' doing?'
I didn't get cast in the play. The fourth time this year. I'm ready to strangle someone. Its like I can't improve! No mater what I work on I just don't get it. At lease James has stopped telling me that I'm to smart to act. Because that's just fucking bullshit.
I don't get physics either. I think I'm just too dumb for it. I was working on one of our many assignments and found that somewhere along the way I lost a dimention; my volume was squared, not cubed. And in the other problem I can't even figure out what coordinate system I'm in. I don't want to ask for help until I can word my problem in an actual English sentence, but the longer it takes me to figure out how to say what confuses me, the more it looks like I'm just putting it off.
I spent the entire weekend reading a fan fic and loved it. Now Obi-Wan is my desk top.
Oh, I think my computer is fucked up again, it won't go to stand by or hybernate. They're not even options. Its like they've just disappeared. The only thing that happens when I walk away is the moniter turns off, eventually.
I found out that no sister likes our parties; we all have to get either drunk or smoke inorder to enjoy ourselves at them. So why do we have to many? That tea party we had the other weekend was amazing.
I haven't worked out in almost two weeks and I feel fat.
Fucking councilor lady said its just the sophmore slumps.
I'm going to get alzheimers when I'm older. I just hope it comes fast and hard and that I die quickly. Either that or send me away for youth in Asia.
I'm off to my dreams now, where Jedi Padawan Whie will whisk me away. Well, either him or Obi-Wan, depends which AU I do to tonight.
sweet dreams
So what on earth am I doing in physics and theater!?!
I feel like a ghost. I'm already dead but my spirit keeps going through the same routins. Sometimes people ask me if I'm alright and I just shrug it off and say I'm tired. I wish people would leave me alone, or not leave me alone. Either stay the fuck out of my life or take a real interest in my life other than the socialy obligated 'how ya' doing?'
I didn't get cast in the play. The fourth time this year. I'm ready to strangle someone. Its like I can't improve! No mater what I work on I just don't get it. At lease James has stopped telling me that I'm to smart to act. Because that's just fucking bullshit.
I don't get physics either. I think I'm just too dumb for it. I was working on one of our many assignments and found that somewhere along the way I lost a dimention; my volume was squared, not cubed. And in the other problem I can't even figure out what coordinate system I'm in. I don't want to ask for help until I can word my problem in an actual English sentence, but the longer it takes me to figure out how to say what confuses me, the more it looks like I'm just putting it off.
I spent the entire weekend reading a fan fic and loved it. Now Obi-Wan is my desk top.
Oh, I think my computer is fucked up again, it won't go to stand by or hybernate. They're not even options. Its like they've just disappeared. The only thing that happens when I walk away is the moniter turns off, eventually.
I found out that no sister likes our parties; we all have to get either drunk or smoke inorder to enjoy ourselves at them. So why do we have to many? That tea party we had the other weekend was amazing.
I haven't worked out in almost two weeks and I feel fat.
Fucking councilor lady said its just the sophmore slumps.
I'm going to get alzheimers when I'm older. I just hope it comes fast and hard and that I die quickly. Either that or send me away for youth in Asia.
I'm off to my dreams now, where Jedi Padawan Whie will whisk me away. Well, either him or Obi-Wan, depends which AU I do to tonight.
sweet dreams