balancing act...... toppled over
ok.... i'm about to rant.... so skip this if you cant take it either.
all i'll say about this first thing is that i think the drama fight is stupid, overly dramatic=excuse the lame pun- and it should quit at its existance.
second..... HOW THE FUCK DO YOU BALANCE: Family, girlfriend, regular friends, enemies, school, work, quiet life, and other shit?!!?!??!?!?!?!!? This has nothing to do with anyone in particular, but I just cant stand it! I WANT TO QUIT!!! So today i get a call in first block- *jonathan, its mom. where's my key to your car? you're behind me* i went home during block two and moved my car when she started to rant at me telling me i was lazy and irresponsible. ....what a nice way to start off the morning. This afternoon, plans were for Bre, Eric and myself to go skiing. MY WHOLE F-ING FAMILY KNEW!! I TOLD THEM ALL! I got a call from my mom today at bres saying i never *checked in* and never did anything around the house, and that she wasnt impressed with me today...... * wow. I went inside today and yelled to see if anyone was home... nobody replied... WTF! if nobody replies, then what the fuck do i do?! call the f'ing cops and say search the city for my mother... i'm going skiing with my girlfriend!!" So none the less... i go skiing and have half a good of a time as i would have if my mom hadnt friggen bitched me out for 10 minutes on the phone while i was packing up.. She's like w....welll you're never home and you take advantage, and you dont clean up, and you have a lot of things to do. I KONW I"M BUSIER THAN HELL!!!! I CAN TAKE IT IF YOU DONT EAT ME FOR IT! ok.... i'm home when i can be, but its not like the rest of my family is saying *stay home, we want to do something.* they've never expressed a hardship for my absence..... i havent been home in the past two weeks... true. DII chorus, then work. then its the weekdays and those are always filled with fun stuff. then it was DII instrumental, then work. now its the weekdays..... today was skiing, tomorrow work, wed. pyso, thurs college counselro, friday will probalbyl work again. I just want them to stop bothering me. I try to keep everything balanced- i see bre 1 maybe2 times a week. Its hard to do stuff with school friends because i see them at school, so i dont give as much priority to them because i already see them.... yes i know its dif. at home than at school. sorry... i'm working on it. I work whenever i get the chance because you cant survive in this world without money, and then i'm home after all that stuff.... oh yeah, then i'm at school, pyso and other DII stuff. ....i'm excited for allstate..... GAHHHHHH!!!!!! I CANT MAKE EVERYBODY HAPPY! I hate to say this, but TOO BAD! I do what i can to stay sane..... sortof sane.
I'm really rambling now, so i'll stop, but really.... does anyone else have this FUCKING DILEMA!?!!?!?!?!?!?!??!!!?!?!!?