Today.
So, I guess since the last time I posted anything remarkably close to sentence structure picturing the ups and downs, here and theres of my life... I guess you could say alot has happened.
Haven't read any old emo posts but heres the footnotes.
-one night years ago hopped on a bus drunk, 19 hours later I'm in Vancouver
-bounced around from place to place, unsuccessful on the job hunt for some time.
-by the kindness of some I had swayed to stay and keep at 'er
-went to college
-graduated my college program for Veterinary Hospital Assistant
-Worked as said profession for crap wages until I could handle moody girls no more.
-got a job taking apart vehicles for afew bucks more
-decided this job sucks and is not for me... but i still do it... damn needing money
-got into a car accident, minor one but things changed from there
-met a girl who I'm still not sure about... big thing is i'm not sure if i'm personally ready to commit, this fear has been there since day one, but through all the doubt the straying, the ups and downs am still with her.
-I just had bacon and eggs for dinner afew hours ago. I FUCKING LOVE BACON!
-person A has pissed me off and been written off as a friend
-person B has pissed me off and been written off as a friend
-person A has redeemed themselves and the forgiving gullable suck I am, forgave them
-I met up with an old highschool girlfriend in August who led me on pretty bad... and when she got caught she blamed the whole thing on me... that was super.
-I am in my own apartment... well my own with girlfriend.... indeed.
-I hate her kitten... god kittens suck.
That's pretty much the jist of it with no real order and timeframe... Bacon was the most recent.
Anyways up to present time, of me hating my job. I pretty much work there because my main boss is a decent guy they have kept me on the payroll even though I have gone about handling things god awfully. And a friend of mine works there, he's the one who pointed me at getting the job.
Recently afew months ago I was diagnosed with depression by my doctor, and a doctor before him had mentioned it. He prescribed me something and after two months of thinking things would get better on their own I finally caved and started taking them after admitting to my doctor that I lied about taking them because they made me worried and anxious.
It's been about 8 days now since I have started them and all I really have to say thus far... is I actually feel a bit better. I have always thought that anti-depresents were for crazy ass people and that no matter how bad things got I'd never take them or never have to. I may have been a bit wrong on that, and they are indeed helping to give me a bit of clarity and perspective... although I am still always tired as fuck.
However I have noticed a lack of hostility, anger and feelings of the like.
I have not been getting frustrated as easily as normal in the last week.
.... More to come eventually.
Haven't read any old emo posts but heres the footnotes.
-one night years ago hopped on a bus drunk, 19 hours later I'm in Vancouver
-bounced around from place to place, unsuccessful on the job hunt for some time.
-by the kindness of some I had swayed to stay and keep at 'er
-went to college
-graduated my college program for Veterinary Hospital Assistant
-Worked as said profession for crap wages until I could handle moody girls no more.
-got a job taking apart vehicles for afew bucks more
-decided this job sucks and is not for me... but i still do it... damn needing money
-got into a car accident, minor one but things changed from there
-met a girl who I'm still not sure about... big thing is i'm not sure if i'm personally ready to commit, this fear has been there since day one, but through all the doubt the straying, the ups and downs am still with her.
-I just had bacon and eggs for dinner afew hours ago. I FUCKING LOVE BACON!
-person A has pissed me off and been written off as a friend
-person B has pissed me off and been written off as a friend
-person A has redeemed themselves and the forgiving gullable suck I am, forgave them
-I met up with an old highschool girlfriend in August who led me on pretty bad... and when she got caught she blamed the whole thing on me... that was super.
-I am in my own apartment... well my own with girlfriend.... indeed.
-I hate her kitten... god kittens suck.
That's pretty much the jist of it with no real order and timeframe... Bacon was the most recent.
Anyways up to present time, of me hating my job. I pretty much work there because my main boss is a decent guy they have kept me on the payroll even though I have gone about handling things god awfully. And a friend of mine works there, he's the one who pointed me at getting the job.
Recently afew months ago I was diagnosed with depression by my doctor, and a doctor before him had mentioned it. He prescribed me something and after two months of thinking things would get better on their own I finally caved and started taking them after admitting to my doctor that I lied about taking them because they made me worried and anxious.
It's been about 8 days now since I have started them and all I really have to say thus far... is I actually feel a bit better. I have always thought that anti-depresents were for crazy ass people and that no matter how bad things got I'd never take them or never have to. I may have been a bit wrong on that, and they are indeed helping to give me a bit of clarity and perspective... although I am still always tired as fuck.
However I have noticed a lack of hostility, anger and feelings of the like.
I have not been getting frustrated as easily as normal in the last week.
.... More to come eventually.