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Haven't updated this thing in a while.. its abt time i do i suppose. i've been managing these past weeks fairly ok... been feeling kinda out of the loop so to speak.
i don't know i guess i miss a roomate or human contact outside of class other than Paul or something. i hear or read all these fun things that people are doing and wonder why i was never invited. am i that easily overlooked? its sad but there have been more than one occasion where i feel like i am. am i not a person on the top of people's heads where they go "oh we're about to do something really fun lets invite lauren" b/c i sure dont feel like thats happening.
i don't know, i had to cope with some things pretty much what i felt like was by myself b/c everyone else was always around others. if anyone even gets that. but i was then told that oh i dont know why i wasnt ever there and oh i should have been and i could have been, but alas, i wasnt. blarg
i just want more human contact. playing an online game doesnt count at all. i eat alone in my room and go from work to class to work to alone. its such a pain b/c i feel like my schedule is so crazy in that i can never schedule any lunched or things w/ friends. i see my friends having lunch together all the time, and i'll see them for like 5 min when they are done or i'm rushing off somewhere.
i have other things i could talk abt... but i need to figure them out first.
sigh... another lonely night of paperage...
i don't know i guess i miss a roomate or human contact outside of class other than Paul or something. i hear or read all these fun things that people are doing and wonder why i was never invited. am i that easily overlooked? its sad but there have been more than one occasion where i feel like i am. am i not a person on the top of people's heads where they go "oh we're about to do something really fun lets invite lauren" b/c i sure dont feel like thats happening.
i don't know, i had to cope with some things pretty much what i felt like was by myself b/c everyone else was always around others. if anyone even gets that. but i was then told that oh i dont know why i wasnt ever there and oh i should have been and i could have been, but alas, i wasnt. blarg
i just want more human contact. playing an online game doesnt count at all. i eat alone in my room and go from work to class to work to alone. its such a pain b/c i feel like my schedule is so crazy in that i can never schedule any lunched or things w/ friends. i see my friends having lunch together all the time, and i'll see them for like 5 min when they are done or i'm rushing off somewhere.
i have other things i could talk abt... but i need to figure them out first.
sigh... another lonely night of paperage...