Non-sequitors
A week into school, and I'm welcomed by a possible suicide on campus
I think I walked by that car, or drove by it, multiple times. On Monday and Wedneday. When I read that this afternoon I immediately started crying. I don't know why. I guess because it's spooky to think I walked by a car with a body in the trunk.
In other news:
It's funny how you don't come across a name in several years, and then suddenly you come across the same name twice in one day. I was watching the music video for Smile by Lily Allen and saw it was directed by Sophie Muller. Then later I was reading up on Cool by Gwen Stefani and saw that the music video was also directed by Sophie Muller. Interesting to only me, I'm sure.
I like this link thing. I believe it encourages interaction from my readers. Haha. Wishful thinking.
Also WMP seems to be playing all my favorite songs right now. My two fave Cat Power songs, some good Saves The Day, (as previously mentioned) Cool, Where Does the Good Go by Tegan and Sara. Plus others. Yeah, all in the last 30 minutes, and it's on random!
I am rediscovering the theraputic value of music. I used to watch TV or DVDs to get myself to cheer up, but I'm finding that music helps more these days. I put the 80's music on to make me feel happy and get me to do mini dances in my chair, and then I put the emo love songs on when I want to know others go through much of what I go through.
It is the general consensus of my friends that I need to learn how to be alone, and be comfortable with it. Virginia made me realize that I've basically had the solo attention of a guy (weather it be a boyfriend, friend with benefits, or just plain friend) basically constantly (with the exception of a few scattered months) since I was 15 or 16. Thats pretty intense. It means I've come to need attention from men. For someone who's always had self esteem issues I realize now I've never really had a problem with attention from men. Ego boost now? Sure. So I need to learn how to be single I guess. I've been doing well since September, but last weekend Virginia made me realize that while I say I'm okay with being single, I'm actually not because I seek out the attention of friends on the weekends. But I think part of it is just me wanting to go out and have fun with my friends.
I also need to lay off the heavy drinking. Several people have started to express concern and I guess that might be an indicator that I may be developing a problem, and seeing as though my family has a history of alchohol abuse, I need to be careful.
So I'm going to learn to be alone and like it. I've got a subscription to Blockbuster online, lots of new books, and dvds, and this here internet. I can do this.
I'm learning a lot about myself in these past few months, and thats good. It's a journey of self discovery.
I'm writting a screenplay for my screenwritting class and I assume I may find myself incorporating many of my current lifes themes into my screenplay. They say write what you know. I may do that. The first week of school, thinking about the screenplay made me think "i don't have the passion to do this" and all I'm required to turn in at the end of the semester is 10 pages to my screen play, the 1st 10. And now here we are in the 2nd week of school and I'm already wanting to do a complete screenplay, and if it's decent enough get it filmed and maybe even submit it. I'm starting to have passion and drive again!!!
I've run out of things to talk about. This is the most normal LJ entry in many weeks. *pats self on back*
I'm seeing Lily Allen with Will on Feb. 6th. You have no idea how absolutely thrilled I am. I'm gonna sing my little face off. Yay!!!
And finally, everyone go download "Divided" by Tegan and Sara. Not only is it a really beautiful song, but at the very begining theres a clip of someone speaking and I think she sounds just like me. So go download and then tell me what you think. And hey you, Sara, you better do this seeing as though you ought to have access to a download of the song since you're the coolest person I know and work at NAPSTER. Pfft. <3 you.
Okay the end.
I think I walked by that car, or drove by it, multiple times. On Monday and Wedneday. When I read that this afternoon I immediately started crying. I don't know why. I guess because it's spooky to think I walked by a car with a body in the trunk.
In other news:
It's funny how you don't come across a name in several years, and then suddenly you come across the same name twice in one day. I was watching the music video for Smile by Lily Allen and saw it was directed by Sophie Muller. Then later I was reading up on Cool by Gwen Stefani and saw that the music video was also directed by Sophie Muller. Interesting to only me, I'm sure.
I like this link thing. I believe it encourages interaction from my readers. Haha. Wishful thinking.
Also WMP seems to be playing all my favorite songs right now. My two fave Cat Power songs, some good Saves The Day, (as previously mentioned) Cool, Where Does the Good Go by Tegan and Sara. Plus others. Yeah, all in the last 30 minutes, and it's on random!
I am rediscovering the theraputic value of music. I used to watch TV or DVDs to get myself to cheer up, but I'm finding that music helps more these days. I put the 80's music on to make me feel happy and get me to do mini dances in my chair, and then I put the emo love songs on when I want to know others go through much of what I go through.
It is the general consensus of my friends that I need to learn how to be alone, and be comfortable with it. Virginia made me realize that I've basically had the solo attention of a guy (weather it be a boyfriend, friend with benefits, or just plain friend) basically constantly (with the exception of a few scattered months) since I was 15 or 16. Thats pretty intense. It means I've come to need attention from men. For someone who's always had self esteem issues I realize now I've never really had a problem with attention from men. Ego boost now? Sure. So I need to learn how to be single I guess. I've been doing well since September, but last weekend Virginia made me realize that while I say I'm okay with being single, I'm actually not because I seek out the attention of friends on the weekends. But I think part of it is just me wanting to go out and have fun with my friends.
I also need to lay off the heavy drinking. Several people have started to express concern and I guess that might be an indicator that I may be developing a problem, and seeing as though my family has a history of alchohol abuse, I need to be careful.
So I'm going to learn to be alone and like it. I've got a subscription to Blockbuster online, lots of new books, and dvds, and this here internet. I can do this.
I'm learning a lot about myself in these past few months, and thats good. It's a journey of self discovery.
I'm writting a screenplay for my screenwritting class and I assume I may find myself incorporating many of my current lifes themes into my screenplay. They say write what you know. I may do that. The first week of school, thinking about the screenplay made me think "i don't have the passion to do this" and all I'm required to turn in at the end of the semester is 10 pages to my screen play, the 1st 10. And now here we are in the 2nd week of school and I'm already wanting to do a complete screenplay, and if it's decent enough get it filmed and maybe even submit it. I'm starting to have passion and drive again!!!
I've run out of things to talk about. This is the most normal LJ entry in many weeks. *pats self on back*
I'm seeing Lily Allen with Will on Feb. 6th. You have no idea how absolutely thrilled I am. I'm gonna sing my little face off. Yay!!!
And finally, everyone go download "Divided" by Tegan and Sara. Not only is it a really beautiful song, but at the very begining theres a clip of someone speaking and I think she sounds just like me. So go download and then tell me what you think. And hey you, Sara, you better do this seeing as though you ought to have access to a download of the song since you're the coolest person I know and work at NAPSTER. Pfft. <3 you.
Okay the end.