Nov 13, 2005 21:10
this is going to be my last entry in this journal.
i can't look back on this anymore,
because i can't be this person anymore.
i have to find a new perspective and a new me.
a lot of my beliefs have been truly just shattered, i'm really lost now.
at this point i'm becoming more cynical, no longer able to hope for the best in others.
i need to let go of a lot of things, i need to leave this all behind.
maybe if i can find some closure and find out who i need to be, i'll make a new one or something.
but i can't bottle myself up in some writings or whims or whatever this thing contains.
i wish the lauren i knew hadnt died. she was such a good person. its a shame.
hopefully i'll find myself soon.
till then, bye.
♥
-Blue