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So yesterday was Benny and Michelle day, and i pretty much lived at his house...we watched the grinch, the red wings game, unwrapped ALOT of hershey kisses, and well...i figured out Benny is a little abusive (he will try to say that i am, but dont listen to him, he is lying)...lol...pillowfights are still fun when your older.
i taught lessons today...my girls are so sweet. i am so proud of both of them for going to S&E..they did soooo good!! katelyn gave me a christmas present today, i thought it was the sweetest thing ever...i just love spreading the joy of music to young kids...its so heart warming.
......why do things have to go from so great to such crap the next....i feel like i am on a rollercoaster ride of emotions...i am so happy all day at school when i am with my friends, and being in band and stuff, and then i get home, and i dont know what happens.........
DISCLAIMER: if you dont like hearing people upset then dont read this.
i am sick of it, and frustrated, angry, upset, hurt....i dont know how to let it out so i am just doing it here. Why now, why does it have to be now!! I am sick of walking in the door every day and having my dad not even say hi, but instead start complaining about me or blaming something on me or finding something to get mad at me about! I feel like he dosent support me at all anymore..why has he changed so much...i try to make it sound like everything is ok, but its just not.....he just dosent get anything about me or understand anything i am going through or listen to me at that!!!! it makes me so upset and its been like this almost every night!!!...i dont even want to come home anymore, and i only have two people i can talk to. let tomorrow be a better day.
"Burn burn the truth, the lies, the news. Burn burn the life that you can’t choose. Burn burn the hate that gets you through. Burn burn for us, for them, for you." - Lost Prophets, Burn Burn ...introduced to a new band yesterday...good stuff.
well thats about it....talk to everyone later.......
michelle