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So I'm actually in a really good mood... North Carolina is amazingg, so far everyone has been ridiculously nice and hospitable, and it seriously makes me so happy being around people like that all the time, everywhere i go. I have a wonderful roommate, a beautiful apartment and i finally got a new job.. its only a hostess position at chilis buuut when i went in to pick up an application everyone was so friendly and the manager loveddd me so i got hired on the spot.
..howeverrr, i was just thinking. I've kinda been trying to figure out what i want, boy-wise. I've given up on trying to find a boyfriend, that just never works out, but i think i just want someone to appreciate me. I've got so much to offer and no one to give it to. I know i'm a good person, I'm kind and sincere.. i thinkk i'm pretty easy to get along with but what is it that makes me different, what is it that i don't have that guys want? anyway.. I don't know if I want to try to take the upper hand and be the one that comes and goes by choice and just have fun or whatever, as opposed to the person on the other side.. that always gets let down and expects more than what they get. So do i stick it out and keep being the one that has no say in where things go, orr be the one who doesn't ever put themselves in a position to get hurt?
I swear i'm not getting down on myself, its just a passing thought.
..howeverrr, i was just thinking. I've kinda been trying to figure out what i want, boy-wise. I've given up on trying to find a boyfriend, that just never works out, but i think i just want someone to appreciate me. I've got so much to offer and no one to give it to. I know i'm a good person, I'm kind and sincere.. i thinkk i'm pretty easy to get along with but what is it that makes me different, what is it that i don't have that guys want? anyway.. I don't know if I want to try to take the upper hand and be the one that comes and goes by choice and just have fun or whatever, as opposed to the person on the other side.. that always gets let down and expects more than what they get. So do i stick it out and keep being the one that has no say in where things go, orr be the one who doesn't ever put themselves in a position to get hurt?
I swear i'm not getting down on myself, its just a passing thought.