Nov 11, 2007 23:01
Man, I really do like acting...
Whenever a performance ends, and I get all that applause, I'm always full of these emotions and feelings welling up inside of me. Whether some aspect of the play was tough for me or enjoyable for me, at that moment everything changes to a simple memory.
"Switch wo Osu Toki," ended successfully. When the senshuuraku performance ended, the first words out of my mouth were, "Aah~ thank goodness, it's finally over." These were words I myself didn't even expect to come out of my mouth, but I also felt like Minami Youhei was the kind of role that left that feeling behind when he left.
I understand that there are some people who haven't seen this work before, so to put it simply: When you push this switch, your heart stops. It's a story about the experiment Japan, overrun with suicices, is carrying out in order to decrease the number of suicides (of course this is all fictional). This work tells the tale of how the survivors carry on.
Why am I alive?? I've been thinking about that lately, for once. I'm sure that there are people around who've experienced worse than I can even imagine, so I can't very well just stand there and just say, "Hang in there!" and "Live!" but I firmly believe that there is some meaning in living, and that I ought to try and find it. As for why I really feel that way, when I was a baby, I had pneumonia, and the doctors told my parents, "He probably won't make it, so please be prepared for the worst," while I wandered between life and death. But I was allowed to live. And so now I'm trying to find why I'm alive.
Does that mean if you die then you had no meaning? Of course not. There's no one whose life had no meaning. But getting through this performance again, I realized once more that I ought to be living my life while searching for meaning behind it. I'm going to live my life for another 100 years, so that when the time comes for it to end after struggling and struggling, I can say, "Ah, thank goodness."
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