Fic: The Darkness
Title: The Darkness
Fandom: Dexter
Pairing: Dexter/Lumen
Spoilers: Season 5, Episode 12: The Big One
Description: Lumen has gone home but the darkness has returned.
Authors Note: I really hated the season finale or at least the breakup scene; it was stupid and made no sense. I Reject It.
She had thought it was gone. The darkness inside of her. She had willed it away. With the blood of an evil manipulative man she had driven it away; and for awhile it had stayed gone. For a short while. The darkness had stayed away. She built up walls to keep it out; she surrounded herself with the things that were filled with light and walked away from the things that weren't even though the things that were made from the dark were the things that made her feel safe. She walked away from those things. She tried so very hard not to think of the blood; the violence; the passion. She tried so very hard not to think of the man who saved her life and the men who tried to take it.
However the darkness the dark passenger who had for one brief moment left her soul found its way back in. Little by little, inch by inch it buried itself inside like it was meant to be there. Like it was home.
She tried to fight it but she knew it was a losing battle. She could see it in the way the people around her looked at her. Her family knew she was different. That she was wrong. She tried so very hard to be who she had once been but how could she be that person when she had no idea who that person was. That person had died and all that was left was her; half a girl with half a soul and a darkness that only one man was able to name. It didn't matter how much she smiled and told them everything was fine. They knew she was lying.
The more she tried not to think about him the more she did. He was the only one who understood her. He was the only one who could. She wanted so very much to go back to him to his embrace. She wanted so very much to surrender to her own darkness and to his. How very easy that would be. How very right that would feel. How very wrong that would feel.
The knife he had given her felt so very right in her hand. So very natural. She so very much wanted to use it on some deserving person. Someone like Jordan Chase who deserved it.
Lumen Pierce didn't know who she was anymore.
And she wasn't sure she wanted to know.
All she did know was she was tired of fighting.
She was going home.
She was going back to him.
Fandom: Dexter
Pairing: Dexter/Lumen
Spoilers: Season 5, Episode 12: The Big One
Description: Lumen has gone home but the darkness has returned.
Authors Note: I really hated the season finale or at least the breakup scene; it was stupid and made no sense. I Reject It.
She had thought it was gone. The darkness inside of her. She had willed it away. With the blood of an evil manipulative man she had driven it away; and for awhile it had stayed gone. For a short while. The darkness had stayed away. She built up walls to keep it out; she surrounded herself with the things that were filled with light and walked away from the things that weren't even though the things that were made from the dark were the things that made her feel safe. She walked away from those things. She tried so very hard not to think of the blood; the violence; the passion. She tried so very hard not to think of the man who saved her life and the men who tried to take it.
However the darkness the dark passenger who had for one brief moment left her soul found its way back in. Little by little, inch by inch it buried itself inside like it was meant to be there. Like it was home.
She tried to fight it but she knew it was a losing battle. She could see it in the way the people around her looked at her. Her family knew she was different. That she was wrong. She tried so very hard to be who she had once been but how could she be that person when she had no idea who that person was. That person had died and all that was left was her; half a girl with half a soul and a darkness that only one man was able to name. It didn't matter how much she smiled and told them everything was fine. They knew she was lying.
The more she tried not to think about him the more she did. He was the only one who understood her. He was the only one who could. She wanted so very much to go back to him to his embrace. She wanted so very much to surrender to her own darkness and to his. How very easy that would be. How very right that would feel. How very wrong that would feel.
The knife he had given her felt so very right in her hand. So very natural. She so very much wanted to use it on some deserving person. Someone like Jordan Chase who deserved it.
Lumen Pierce didn't know who she was anymore.
And she wasn't sure she wanted to know.
All she did know was she was tired of fighting.
She was going home.
She was going back to him.