lifes not getting any better...
Im not sure what to do right now.
I cried in front of all my teachers and my dad.
I am terribly embarassed.
Im a dumbass.
Im ugly and apparently guys arent attracted to me.
Im retarded in the eyes of my family...
There is a 40/100 chance i will pass my classes.. this means no trip to Colorado if I dont pass.
to top the sundae with a cherry.. Nathan.. is just seeming to get farther and farther away.
Why shouldnt I be crying right now? Why shouldnt I do what I want.. its not like i have a life anyway.. its etched in stone. Im stupid.
In other news. I will get a dodge viper V12 engine and put it in my honda civic. I want the best woofers possible, I want to redo all the interior, platnium rims, floor lights.. the whole shibang.
My mom said im like a ghetto person.. my residence will be shit and I will have a nice ass car. I dont care. A car shows your personailty.
Do you know how it feels to try so hard to even get a chance at something and then it feels like your trying to hard on a lost thing? I feel that way. Its like it brings happiness to my day, then the day is over and im left just sitting there.. unsatisfied. I know ive said that before too. But I dont wanna give up because I really want him it.
I cried in front of all my teachers and my dad.
I am terribly embarassed.
Im a dumbass.
Im ugly and apparently guys arent attracted to me.
Im retarded in the eyes of my family...
There is a 40/100 chance i will pass my classes.. this means no trip to Colorado if I dont pass.
to top the sundae with a cherry.. Nathan.. is just seeming to get farther and farther away.
Why shouldnt I be crying right now? Why shouldnt I do what I want.. its not like i have a life anyway.. its etched in stone. Im stupid.
In other news. I will get a dodge viper V12 engine and put it in my honda civic. I want the best woofers possible, I want to redo all the interior, platnium rims, floor lights.. the whole shibang.
My mom said im like a ghetto person.. my residence will be shit and I will have a nice ass car. I dont care. A car shows your personailty.
Do you know how it feels to try so hard to even get a chance at something and then it feels like your trying to hard on a lost thing? I feel that way. Its like it brings happiness to my day, then the day is over and im left just sitting there.. unsatisfied. I know ive said that before too. But I dont wanna give up because I really want him it.