winds of change
143 weeks since an update.
"it's an ocean goin' swimmin' - it's an ocean and i'm givin' into love"
i have been living my life like i am reading the epic tale on the edge of my seat. sometimes i am watching safe behind the glass behind my eyes, and sometimes i am right there, every step of the way, trilling at the highest and lowest points of my voice.
36 hours until we leave in the big blue veggie oil bus for the circus tour. four weeks, coast to coast with some zigzags in between. beautiful people, laughter. an AMAZING show that has come together in three or four days.
3 and a half months until i depart for india.
7 days until i turn 21.
this year...20 has been full of solitude. internal shifts manifesting into the external. internal shifts - stronger spine. very strong spine. learning the language of my heart. following dreams. hitchiking. living in the woods. learning to trust the universe. being in the peripheral of a death, being in the forefront of a death. being home for 6 months. holding my ground. assertion. crystal shop. spiritual foundation. woods.
my life has been so full. my dreams are evolving and growing. i am evolving and growing with my belief in them. in my following them. the more i have the courage to follow them, despite opposition, the stronger i become.
hitchiking adventures to boston.
going to india soon.
a lot of the things i wanted to accomplish this year turned out to be things that didnt serve me. but the things i truly wanted to do, i did. they just took lots more energy than i thought they would. loving oneself. learning to speak gently to oneself. learning to listen to my heart. finding passions.
i'll be turning 21 on the travel day to chicago. we are playing a show that night.
my act is conceptual clowning and poi spinning. i am spinning plants. the act starts as a puppet show of two plants procreating. out of their love comes a seed - me. first i grow false leaves, then roots which slurp up the pitterpattering rain. then the great almighty flashlight sun turns on and i grow bigger and grow true leaves and finally become a flower and spread my own seed. then comes the poi spinning. i begin to spin two small plants. i do a couple of tricks, get the audience excited and then begin spinning an even bigger pair of plants. it ends with milo, the skeezy manager telling me to put on a rainbow wig and do a real clown act. the end of the entire show culminates in me pseudo poisoning him. while the poison does cause him to itch, wretch, and scream, it ultimately leads to "spiritual enlightenment".
kids, it's good to be back.
"it's an ocean goin' swimmin' - it's an ocean and i'm givin' into love"
i have been living my life like i am reading the epic tale on the edge of my seat. sometimes i am watching safe behind the glass behind my eyes, and sometimes i am right there, every step of the way, trilling at the highest and lowest points of my voice.
36 hours until we leave in the big blue veggie oil bus for the circus tour. four weeks, coast to coast with some zigzags in between. beautiful people, laughter. an AMAZING show that has come together in three or four days.
3 and a half months until i depart for india.
7 days until i turn 21.
this year...20 has been full of solitude. internal shifts manifesting into the external. internal shifts - stronger spine. very strong spine. learning the language of my heart. following dreams. hitchiking. living in the woods. learning to trust the universe. being in the peripheral of a death, being in the forefront of a death. being home for 6 months. holding my ground. assertion. crystal shop. spiritual foundation. woods.
my life has been so full. my dreams are evolving and growing. i am evolving and growing with my belief in them. in my following them. the more i have the courage to follow them, despite opposition, the stronger i become.
hitchiking adventures to boston.
going to india soon.
a lot of the things i wanted to accomplish this year turned out to be things that didnt serve me. but the things i truly wanted to do, i did. they just took lots more energy than i thought they would. loving oneself. learning to speak gently to oneself. learning to listen to my heart. finding passions.
i'll be turning 21 on the travel day to chicago. we are playing a show that night.
my act is conceptual clowning and poi spinning. i am spinning plants. the act starts as a puppet show of two plants procreating. out of their love comes a seed - me. first i grow false leaves, then roots which slurp up the pitterpattering rain. then the great almighty flashlight sun turns on and i grow bigger and grow true leaves and finally become a flower and spread my own seed. then comes the poi spinning. i begin to spin two small plants. i do a couple of tricks, get the audience excited and then begin spinning an even bigger pair of plants. it ends with milo, the skeezy manager telling me to put on a rainbow wig and do a real clown act. the end of the entire show culminates in me pseudo poisoning him. while the poison does cause him to itch, wretch, and scream, it ultimately leads to "spiritual enlightenment".
kids, it's good to be back.