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[femminology_]

linger low on the horizon
morning makes me a memory
and i touch it
often compulsively
looking for peace

i won an award for poetry
worth $150
and i sit here to write it
you know it dont always come so easy

im trying to maintain this
independence
keep the raft afloat
while i brave ocean waves
and when the water gets in my lungs
i know how to breathe my body to a calm
but not as well as id hope

the grrl behind me on the risers
sings loudly and offpitch in my ear
and since we take criticism one at a time
i told her she was screamin'
she was screeeeamin' in mah ear
she took it well and joked it down
to a calm till' i was lyin' through my teeth about shit i dont even need to lie about.

sleezy like that.

my clearest moments are when there is no expectation
when i am relaxed enough to just exist
and standing on risers two days straight
and 31 miles biked later
i am not that relaxed person
but hey, i got a check for $150 and im ready
to pack it all into a plane and some mushrooms

you really just lose yourself
my clearest moments
are when there is no beginning and there is no end

nigel, i am not affraid to feel how much i love you.
i am not affraid

i thought coon meant cooter

and cooter means cunt

and im bleeding from it
bleeding on my skirts that i ride my bike in
bleeding on the bathrobe
bleeding in your hair
and you will go home
and you will wash it all out

- this had life in it