Hmm...
So today was a good day. Did well in french. Orgo was so
boring. I just wanted to die right there or at least past out and
get the hell out of there. The doctor does a good job explaining,
but it's ORGO, which means it will always be boring. I figured
out during orgo lecture, that hell will be our personal
nightmare. Not the whole burning for eternity bit, but more like
living forever in a nonstop personal hell. Mine would be orgo
class going on and never ending. Knowing that it will never end
would just be too painful and unbearable. Yes, that is what hell
would be like for me.
So after orgo, came home to rest and study a bit for my anatomy & physiology exam, but really didn't get any rest or didn't do any studying. Raul (my Chilean model/flirt buddy) called. He wanted to meet up to make up our canceled date. We usually meet every Monday to chill and I canceled on him yesterday because I had to do some studying for Social & Preventive Medicine. I could not bail on him for a second time so I went to his place.
Spent all afternoon and early evening with Raul. We talked a lot and just shared with one another our presence. Would have spent more time with him, but I had class at 7 and he had class at 8. Shame. I really look forward to our semi-dates. I feel so comfortable with him. Today we did the usual. Get coffee, walk a bit and then went to his place, where, as always, we went into his bedroom, put on some music and just talked. It's nice. Just laying on his bed with him and letting my guard down. Let my emotional self talk and talk. He listens and knows what to tell me. His energy is so positive and he really knows how to make me feel honest and good about myself. Today was the best time I had with him. Nothing was different in what we did, but something awoke my feelings for him.
I am seriously considering starting a serious relationship with him. Taking it to the next level. There is the sexual tension, but we never really did anything about it. Just the occasional kiss and flirting/teasing when we are drunk or the weird awkward silent moment when our eyes lock and everything is just said but nothing is done.
I guess we have a good start to commence a more serious relationship. We get along emotionally and the physical spark is there as well. He really does it for me. He is smart, good looking, neat, has a cool apartment, has an adorable cat, fun and the kind of guy I need in my life.
Kicked ass on my anatomy & physiology exam. I was ready to not do so hot, because I thought I did not invest enough time reading the chapter and purposely blew my chance to get the studying I thought I needed by spending that time with Raul. Was completely wrong.
Am I falling in love again? I am ready to do it again?
So after orgo, came home to rest and study a bit for my anatomy & physiology exam, but really didn't get any rest or didn't do any studying. Raul (my Chilean model/flirt buddy) called. He wanted to meet up to make up our canceled date. We usually meet every Monday to chill and I canceled on him yesterday because I had to do some studying for Social & Preventive Medicine. I could not bail on him for a second time so I went to his place.
Spent all afternoon and early evening with Raul. We talked a lot and just shared with one another our presence. Would have spent more time with him, but I had class at 7 and he had class at 8. Shame. I really look forward to our semi-dates. I feel so comfortable with him. Today we did the usual. Get coffee, walk a bit and then went to his place, where, as always, we went into his bedroom, put on some music and just talked. It's nice. Just laying on his bed with him and letting my guard down. Let my emotional self talk and talk. He listens and knows what to tell me. His energy is so positive and he really knows how to make me feel honest and good about myself. Today was the best time I had with him. Nothing was different in what we did, but something awoke my feelings for him.
I am seriously considering starting a serious relationship with him. Taking it to the next level. There is the sexual tension, but we never really did anything about it. Just the occasional kiss and flirting/teasing when we are drunk or the weird awkward silent moment when our eyes lock and everything is just said but nothing is done.
I guess we have a good start to commence a more serious relationship. We get along emotionally and the physical spark is there as well. He really does it for me. He is smart, good looking, neat, has a cool apartment, has an adorable cat, fun and the kind of guy I need in my life.
Kicked ass on my anatomy & physiology exam. I was ready to not do so hot, because I thought I did not invest enough time reading the chapter and purposely blew my chance to get the studying I thought I needed by spending that time with Raul. Was completely wrong.
Am I falling in love again? I am ready to do it again?