Transitions aka a mini update on life and fandom
Life here has been ridiculous. Every day pretty much ends with me vegged out in front of the tv before I pass out. Even days where I haven't done much I'm so emotionally exhausted that I can't really think straight.
I broke up with my bf and now we're in the, whatever the hell this is, phase that sounds something like "if we're going to get back together it'll happen organically." Whatever that means... I thought I would be more emotional if we broke up, but I'm not entirely sure how I feel. Well I'm not gonna lie, a part of me feels free.
But that freedom isn't cause I don't care about him, it's cause one of the biggest differences in our lives/personality is that I feel like he doesn't dream. Or at least he doesn't dream about the same things as me. He wants to get married and have kids (not necessarily with me) about an hour from the town where he grew up. He's never left the country and no matter what he says, it's clear that he doesn't really want to. That's not me. Sometimes I felt like being with him would mean giving up on all of the traveling and adventures I want to have.
It was kind of fitting then, that just as we broke up I got two small grants that will essentially pay for a two-week research trip to London at the end of the summer. I bought my ticket today and it's been hard not to project myself into the future, in my favorite city. \o/
And now, I've started to get that once-familiar urging to be abroad again. I'd hoped that money would stretch far enough to get me to Rome while I'm in Europe but that's pushing it... a lot. So I've decided that I'm going to save up for a small trip to Italy, maybe for next spring, or earlier if I can make it happen. It'll be really nice to put my passport (and that atrocious picture) to good use again. And right now I'm trying to find the money to take my friends up on a lovely offer to stay with them in the Caribbean this summer. I'd hoped to get creative with my itinerary and go with them to Trinidad and Barbados, but it all depends...
Also, a few months ago Firefox went ridiculously wonky on me and I had to delete it, but couldn't re-download a usable version. And then a few days ago I gave it another try and it worked! Oh, firefox, safari has absolutely nothing on you....
Now to fandom:
The Community season finale just ended and... damn I'm gonna miss that show! But I do not ship Jeff/Annie at all. So, boo to that.
Cold Case and Law & Order were canceled. My heart hurts. I've been a fan of Law and Order since I was a teenager and I just don't really understand a fall schedule without Jack McCoy. I mean I really don't. Also, I was watching some reruns today and I saw Idris Elba on a pretty old L&O. NUH UH! Man I'm gonna miss that show. Especially since Vincent D'Onofrio and Katrhryn Erbe left L&O:CI and the new season of that show is so unbelievably boring that I just finally canceled the season pass for it on my dvr. And Cold Case, I'm really sad about that cancellation even though I always had a problem with Lily and there was never enough Kat Miller/Tracie Thoms in my opinion. But I generally loved the format of that show and now I'll never know how they planned to develop the Miller/Bell relationship. *sigh*
Private Practice: How annoying was it for them to end a fairly decent epi by killing Dell and then Addison/Sam? fail
Vampire Diaries finale: Loved it! I actually think it was the best epi of the season. That show totally caught me off guard and I'm a little surprised at how much I'm going to miss it.
Supernatural: WTF? Really? Was it just me or was the first 30 minutes the slowest of the season? And I'm still confused as all hell about Dean and... what the hell is that girl's name?! Really? Her? double fail But Sam at the end... I like!
I finally tracked down Strike Back and I must say that I approve. I originally only planned to watch because of The Armitage (duh) but it was much, much better than I could have imagined. So... yay! I can't wait to grab the last two epis.
I decided to just wait and catch Doctor Who on BBC America so I'm not up-to-date on the epis in the UK and I'm ok with that. If only b/c this season has been really good and I'm more than happy to prolong it. Although it does make me wonder WTF is going on with Torchwood.
I'm watching Flashforward now and... I've been meaning to gush that Neil Jackson is on the show. He's only shown up like 4 times but I <3 that guy and I have ever since Blade: The Series. Yea, I watched that but... Whatever there's no excuse but he's too pretty and his accent makes me go a little weak.
I was supposed to be working today but after I took my boy-cat to the vet I laid down on the couch and watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona and loved it. And then I watched Tristan & Isolde and... liked it. *shrug* Both of these movies I finally saw for the first time. I know I'm really behind. You don't even wanna see my netflix queue.
I went and saw The Losers a few weeks ago. Awesome, if you haven't seen it, btw. My friend and I were straight up fangirl squeeing in that bitch. It was great! And last week I saw Letters to Juliet. It was... ok. I love Amanda Seyfried though so it's hard for me to be too critical. Especially because I've been dreaming of Italy lately. Granted I'm dreaming of Rome and I was only in Verona for about a day, but anything will do...
I'm waiting on the 30 Rock season finale. I usually have to catch it later on Hulu so I'm super excited to watch it on Thursday, when it airs, on my tv!
Alright, this post has gotten a little bit away from me so, I'll just end with two songs that are getting me through each day. And I mean, last night I might have been playing these two songs on repeat and singing along. *hides face in shame* I feel pretty bad for my poor neighbors! hahahhaha
And this one....
I broke up with my bf and now we're in the, whatever the hell this is, phase that sounds something like "if we're going to get back together it'll happen organically." Whatever that means... I thought I would be more emotional if we broke up, but I'm not entirely sure how I feel. Well I'm not gonna lie, a part of me feels free.
But that freedom isn't cause I don't care about him, it's cause one of the biggest differences in our lives/personality is that I feel like he doesn't dream. Or at least he doesn't dream about the same things as me. He wants to get married and have kids (not necessarily with me) about an hour from the town where he grew up. He's never left the country and no matter what he says, it's clear that he doesn't really want to. That's not me. Sometimes I felt like being with him would mean giving up on all of the traveling and adventures I want to have.
It was kind of fitting then, that just as we broke up I got two small grants that will essentially pay for a two-week research trip to London at the end of the summer. I bought my ticket today and it's been hard not to project myself into the future, in my favorite city. \o/
And now, I've started to get that once-familiar urging to be abroad again. I'd hoped that money would stretch far enough to get me to Rome while I'm in Europe but that's pushing it... a lot. So I've decided that I'm going to save up for a small trip to Italy, maybe for next spring, or earlier if I can make it happen. It'll be really nice to put my passport (and that atrocious picture) to good use again. And right now I'm trying to find the money to take my friends up on a lovely offer to stay with them in the Caribbean this summer. I'd hoped to get creative with my itinerary and go with them to Trinidad and Barbados, but it all depends...
Also, a few months ago Firefox went ridiculously wonky on me and I had to delete it, but couldn't re-download a usable version. And then a few days ago I gave it another try and it worked! Oh, firefox, safari has absolutely nothing on you....
Now to fandom:
The Community season finale just ended and... damn I'm gonna miss that show! But I do not ship Jeff/Annie at all. So, boo to that.
Cold Case and Law & Order were canceled. My heart hurts. I've been a fan of Law and Order since I was a teenager and I just don't really understand a fall schedule without Jack McCoy. I mean I really don't. Also, I was watching some reruns today and I saw Idris Elba on a pretty old L&O. NUH UH! Man I'm gonna miss that show. Especially since Vincent D'Onofrio and Katrhryn Erbe left L&O:CI and the new season of that show is so unbelievably boring that I just finally canceled the season pass for it on my dvr. And Cold Case, I'm really sad about that cancellation even though I always had a problem with Lily and there was never enough Kat Miller/Tracie Thoms in my opinion. But I generally loved the format of that show and now I'll never know how they planned to develop the Miller/Bell relationship. *sigh*
Private Practice: How annoying was it for them to end a fairly decent epi by killing Dell and then Addison/Sam? fail
Vampire Diaries finale: Loved it! I actually think it was the best epi of the season. That show totally caught me off guard and I'm a little surprised at how much I'm going to miss it.
Supernatural: WTF? Really? Was it just me or was the first 30 minutes the slowest of the season? And I'm still confused as all hell about Dean and... what the hell is that girl's name?! Really? Her? double fail But Sam at the end... I like!
I finally tracked down Strike Back and I must say that I approve. I originally only planned to watch because of The Armitage (duh) but it was much, much better than I could have imagined. So... yay! I can't wait to grab the last two epis.
I decided to just wait and catch Doctor Who on BBC America so I'm not up-to-date on the epis in the UK and I'm ok with that. If only b/c this season has been really good and I'm more than happy to prolong it. Although it does make me wonder WTF is going on with Torchwood.
I'm watching Flashforward now and... I've been meaning to gush that Neil Jackson is on the show. He's only shown up like 4 times but I <3 that guy and I have ever since Blade: The Series. Yea, I watched that but... Whatever there's no excuse but he's too pretty and his accent makes me go a little weak.
I was supposed to be working today but after I took my boy-cat to the vet I laid down on the couch and watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona and loved it. And then I watched Tristan & Isolde and... liked it. *shrug* Both of these movies I finally saw for the first time. I know I'm really behind. You don't even wanna see my netflix queue.
I went and saw The Losers a few weeks ago. Awesome, if you haven't seen it, btw. My friend and I were straight up fangirl squeeing in that bitch. It was great! And last week I saw Letters to Juliet. It was... ok. I love Amanda Seyfried though so it's hard for me to be too critical. Especially because I've been dreaming of Italy lately. Granted I'm dreaming of Rome and I was only in Verona for about a day, but anything will do...
I'm waiting on the 30 Rock season finale. I usually have to catch it later on Hulu so I'm super excited to watch it on Thursday, when it airs, on my tv!
Alright, this post has gotten a little bit away from me so, I'll just end with two songs that are getting me through each day. And I mean, last night I might have been playing these two songs on repeat and singing along. *hides face in shame* I feel pretty bad for my poor neighbors! hahahhaha
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