its been awhile
its been awhile since ive updated LJ...Ive distanced myself for awhile because i was too bored to type all my life's doings when they arent too interesting to say the least.
went to florida for christmas which was so faboulous. we did something everyday from riding go-carts to rollercoasters..
i do although feel bad for not going to see my mother whom is very ill.she has had 2 brain surgeries with 1 biopsy.i pray for her everyday.shes just 51. There was swelling of the brain evidently from what the cat and mri scans they performed...im so scared she might have some kinda brain issues and die....no way..what the fuck would i do if she died?i dont know...i havent really thought too much about this cause i gotta stay strong.
so grandama decided to kick out poncho soon. its like some feminist movement going on over there. with mom and grandma there.grandma and poncho have been together since 1960 and she now decided she wants a all female living space. kinda makes me laugh when i think about it...all he does is drink anyway...forever drunk...thats toxic to anyone who dosent drink.grandma dont drink..not even a beer..she cooks with beer but that dosent count.i said "you gotta give him 30 days notice to move out."moms going to move in.enuff said.
while in Fla I met this really cool gay man named Steven who took me to the leather bar where i met this cute male bartender giving me free shots...i got fucked up..me and steven.Steven works as a hairdresser at the hilton. I got to see Holly who is delightful. she is so rad to hang out with..shes a professional Real estate Agent.she has this matter of fact attitude and got me looking at myself deeply and i said I had sucker written on my forehead. i think i let a tear fall..emotional i became for no reason...i feel alone even amongst people.i have no sense of community here..i think i want to take a nap
went to florida for christmas which was so faboulous. we did something everyday from riding go-carts to rollercoasters..
i do although feel bad for not going to see my mother whom is very ill.she has had 2 brain surgeries with 1 biopsy.i pray for her everyday.shes just 51. There was swelling of the brain evidently from what the cat and mri scans they performed...im so scared she might have some kinda brain issues and die....no way..what the fuck would i do if she died?i dont know...i havent really thought too much about this cause i gotta stay strong.
so grandama decided to kick out poncho soon. its like some feminist movement going on over there. with mom and grandma there.grandma and poncho have been together since 1960 and she now decided she wants a all female living space. kinda makes me laugh when i think about it...all he does is drink anyway...forever drunk...thats toxic to anyone who dosent drink.grandma dont drink..not even a beer..she cooks with beer but that dosent count.i said "you gotta give him 30 days notice to move out."moms going to move in.enuff said.
while in Fla I met this really cool gay man named Steven who took me to the leather bar where i met this cute male bartender giving me free shots...i got fucked up..me and steven.Steven works as a hairdresser at the hilton. I got to see Holly who is delightful. she is so rad to hang out with..shes a professional Real estate Agent.she has this matter of fact attitude and got me looking at myself deeply and i said I had sucker written on my forehead. i think i let a tear fall..emotional i became for no reason...i feel alone even amongst people.i have no sense of community here..i think i want to take a nap