B's retired good girl and my being cast to Niggerdom...
I have come to a conclusion that ever five seconds
a sucker is born
but I never understood why people became afrocentric.
Things older people tell you but a trusting and naive mind can't wrap around...
the hard reality is that it doesn't matter who you befriend...when they are not black...
as soon as you get on their bad side
stand up to straight
stare in there eyes
want to be equal
and "forget you place"
you are reminded you are a nigger
and all the hurt of the word poors out of your soul and every other black person you know
you have been taken from angel status and beauty
to the cold ground of niggerdom
no matter who you thought they were you were ...
never thought it would happen to me
thats why it hurts so bad.
Do my big lips offend you
maybe they are not good enough to speak your name
have I brushed my hair straight in vain
is my skin too "sun-kissed"
undeserving of you kiss
are my eyes to dark?
to leave a mark
in your cold heart?
What turns good strong women into liars...cheaters...drunks...hoes...?
a disregard for themselves from being ignored
there pain on the inside rises to the top only to be displayed
so easily avoided if someone knew her worth and showed her.
I extended my hand to hold you
and when I received it back
my fingers were broken.
seeing justin later
excited
he knew me from my dorm life
a sucker is born
but I never understood why people became afrocentric.
Things older people tell you but a trusting and naive mind can't wrap around...
the hard reality is that it doesn't matter who you befriend...when they are not black...
as soon as you get on their bad side
stand up to straight
stare in there eyes
want to be equal
and "forget you place"
you are reminded you are a nigger
and all the hurt of the word poors out of your soul and every other black person you know
you have been taken from angel status and beauty
to the cold ground of niggerdom
no matter who you thought they were you were ...
never thought it would happen to me
thats why it hurts so bad.
Do my big lips offend you
maybe they are not good enough to speak your name
have I brushed my hair straight in vain
is my skin too "sun-kissed"
undeserving of you kiss
are my eyes to dark?
to leave a mark
in your cold heart?
What turns good strong women into liars...cheaters...drunks...hoes...?
a disregard for themselves from being ignored
there pain on the inside rises to the top only to be displayed
so easily avoided if someone knew her worth and showed her.
I extended my hand to hold you
and when I received it back
my fingers were broken.
seeing justin later
excited
he knew me from my dorm life