To go, or not to go...that is the question
I'm sitting on the fence where going out tonight is concerned. Part of me feels obligated to show up...I haven't been out in a few weeks and people actually want to see me (who'd a thought?)
Then there's my other (stronger) desire to just stay home and enjoy peace and quiet and do stuff around the house or watch movies. Boring, I know.
This is my very favorite time of year...I can open the windows and doors and put my classical cd's in my stereo and just do stuff I want to do (some stuff I have to do). I can't stand the thought of figuring out what to wear & spending an hour or more getting ready so I can show up, have a few drinks and go home, only to wake up feeling worn out on Sunday because I went out Saturday night.
I'm not feeling depressed, so that's not the problem. I've had a giant shift in my perception of things and it's not bad, it's just different...very different.
Losing someone you admire, love and adore to the core of your being can have a profound effect on what's important and what doesn't really matter. This is not to say seeing my friends is not important, but if you know me at all, you know what I mean.
I HAVE to go to work Monday through Friday. I HAVE to pay my bills. I HAVE to do my dishes and laundry. I don't want to HAVE to feel like I HAVE to go out on Saturday night.
Then there's my other (stronger) desire to just stay home and enjoy peace and quiet and do stuff around the house or watch movies. Boring, I know.
This is my very favorite time of year...I can open the windows and doors and put my classical cd's in my stereo and just do stuff I want to do (some stuff I have to do). I can't stand the thought of figuring out what to wear & spending an hour or more getting ready so I can show up, have a few drinks and go home, only to wake up feeling worn out on Sunday because I went out Saturday night.
I'm not feeling depressed, so that's not the problem. I've had a giant shift in my perception of things and it's not bad, it's just different...very different.
Losing someone you admire, love and adore to the core of your being can have a profound effect on what's important and what doesn't really matter. This is not to say seeing my friends is not important, but if you know me at all, you know what I mean.
I HAVE to go to work Monday through Friday. I HAVE to pay my bills. I HAVE to do my dishes and laundry. I don't want to HAVE to feel like I HAVE to go out on Saturday night.