Another year...
For some crazy reason I woke up this morning & thought, "I wonder what's new on LJ?" It seems FB has taken over and no one posts here anymore. FB is too public for me for delve into much of real life...
I'm shocked it's been more than a year since I've made time to write here. So, much has changed, happened is hapening & changing. I turned 50 last week and that seems almost surreal. My Grandfather died in October and it is was the first holiday without him...he would have been 100 next month. My poor Gran is lost and is quickly losing more and more of her memory. I think there are days where she has forgotten him or that she forgets that he is gone forever. It's been such a sad time. With death comes rebirth. Dallas is set to have her baby in April and we are so excited. I'm longing for summer, sunshine the boat and the few remaining months at the lake house. We have already decided that once the baby is here that we will want to be home more & not at the lake all summer and so we will let it go in June when the lease is up. I'm sad but we can focus more time on the house & it seems silly to be going in 10 different directions. I love my new job selling new homes and not dealing with all the drama of my investors. I have a real life again. Grief is so hard. I never really knew how difficult it is & how profound loss could make the sadness so heavy.
I'm going to make more time to write. I'm going to do more of what makes me happy.
I'm shocked it's been more than a year since I've made time to write here. So, much has changed, happened is hapening & changing. I turned 50 last week and that seems almost surreal. My Grandfather died in October and it is was the first holiday without him...he would have been 100 next month. My poor Gran is lost and is quickly losing more and more of her memory. I think there are days where she has forgotten him or that she forgets that he is gone forever. It's been such a sad time. With death comes rebirth. Dallas is set to have her baby in April and we are so excited. I'm longing for summer, sunshine the boat and the few remaining months at the lake house. We have already decided that once the baby is here that we will want to be home more & not at the lake all summer and so we will let it go in June when the lease is up. I'm sad but we can focus more time on the house & it seems silly to be going in 10 different directions. I love my new job selling new homes and not dealing with all the drama of my investors. I have a real life again. Grief is so hard. I never really knew how difficult it is & how profound loss could make the sadness so heavy.
I'm going to make more time to write. I'm going to do more of what makes me happy.