Sometimes you just have to start where you are
I don't really know where to start and suddenly I realize that this truly is the ramblings of a saucy wench...
It's been 6 months since Levi and I have spoken or seen each other. I'm ready to move on but still she is in my thoughts. I'm in a really good relationship that is healthy, happy, loving and sexual but I still have sadness about what was. I hate wishing something would have been different when I need to accept it for what it was/is. I'm tired that 6 months later I'm still thinking and writing about this.
I worked at The Hangout for the first time in months which then led to me looking at Fl for the first time in months which made me realize it's been a year since all the XP drama happened and the unraveling of my life. A year ago I could not have dreamed being where I am now. I am very happy. I have peace in my life. I love being at home and often find it hard to be motivated to work. Work and the lifestyle are no longer my passions. I love being home, spending time with Lana, being with our kids, hanging out with friends. I love having people over to entertain, watching movies or working on projects around the house. I've been thinking of a career change...the stress of my job is killing me and I hate being self employed and having to deal with all this tax/business crap. I want to just be freaking employee or run a cash based business. In a perfect world, I'd win the lottery and open a coffee shop bookstore and hang out all day. I love my life minus my super stressful job.
It's been 6 months since Levi and I have spoken or seen each other. I'm ready to move on but still she is in my thoughts. I'm in a really good relationship that is healthy, happy, loving and sexual but I still have sadness about what was. I hate wishing something would have been different when I need to accept it for what it was/is. I'm tired that 6 months later I'm still thinking and writing about this.
I worked at The Hangout for the first time in months which then led to me looking at Fl for the first time in months which made me realize it's been a year since all the XP drama happened and the unraveling of my life. A year ago I could not have dreamed being where I am now. I am very happy. I have peace in my life. I love being at home and often find it hard to be motivated to work. Work and the lifestyle are no longer my passions. I love being home, spending time with Lana, being with our kids, hanging out with friends. I love having people over to entertain, watching movies or working on projects around the house. I've been thinking of a career change...the stress of my job is killing me and I hate being self employed and having to deal with all this tax/business crap. I want to just be freaking employee or run a cash based business. In a perfect world, I'd win the lottery and open a coffee shop bookstore and hang out all day. I love my life minus my super stressful job.