Thank you, D&D!
Friends are the difference between lost and found!
Thursday I got a call. The job that I was supposed to start on Jan. 2 has been put on hold. They just received word from corporate that they are on a hiring freeze. This will have made the third time this has happened to me in the course of 8 weeks. All this time I’ve been feeding myself and my husband sunshine and rainbows being optimistic, trying to keep a stiff upper lip. Mostly because I didn’t want to make my husband worry with the holiday’s coming and secondly, my situation could be far worse and is certainly not unique.
Anyways, Thursday’s call was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I had a meltdown. There was just no cheer left in me, no rain bows, no sunshine, not even a half baked smile! I was done! When I am like this I tend to pull away from people. I am one of those people you either love or hate there really is no in between with someone of my personality. Knowing this about myself it’s safer for me to head back into the shadows until it’s safe and sound to come out again. I emailed my friends and let them know that I was having a hard time managing things and if things didn’t work out before our game on Saturday that I would not be coming. I just needed some time to sort things out.
redqueenmeg Sent us an invitation for brunch with all sorts of yummies along with the honor of helping her and Len decorate their Christmas tree. Feeling a little awkward, embarrassed really, I accepted. So we went over and spent the greater part of the afternoon listening to Christmas music, decorating the Christmas tree and watching Len run around high on waffles and jelly-beans. Awesome kid! I was starting to feel a little better though my nerves were still frayed, but decided to go to our scheduled game anyways. Because, I was so looking forward to it all week and the only thing waiting for me at home was doubts and fears!
So, three hours into the evening we break for dinner. I was spending some time zoning out with Rachel’s Anthony’s wife as she played Wii. When I came back to my chair to find a present, I thought at first that someone had left THEIR present in my chair, but it was pointed out rather politely by our Host that it was in fact for me. My friends had bought me a gift! They all got together and got me a gift to cheer me up! What they didn’t know was they had me at the gift wrap box! I didn’t even have to open it, the card and the box was enough. I was in tears!
When I finally opened the package I saw a bunch miniature Christmas bear decorations! I collect teddy bears! It was absolutely perfect! Thanks to my friends I got my second wind back and well armed for whatever life throws my way.
I included a picture. It’s not such a great picture because it’s from my camera phone but, the holiday bears are up and looking wonderful! Thank you for making this Christmas so very special for me!