thanks. for bein so stupid
I ruined friendships, as usual gave in to something incredibly stupid, hurt someone and now that someone hates me, and sure everyone else hates me too...
I hate sayin this but i gave in to something stupid, which i regretted so much, i think the next day or two i got comfort from someone else, who i don't think really cares about me a whole lot, so when i realized it, again, the next day or two, i found comfort in someone else, i know he really cares about me, i love him too, and i decided to try it out, i don't know if i really care romantically or if maybe this is just a rebound, maybe i just like the fact he really cares about me, and if i really need him i can just talk to him and he and i live in the same city, always talk to each other... and i said yes...
i think this could work out, but i'm scared, i hate myself for thinking this too, i think i said yes to this relationship because i need some help with myself, i need someone to help me with my heart...
and also, i think it was just a solution, so people would stop thinking there was still something goin on between me and aaron, i think, i feel like a hipocrite
it all happened so fast, just a few days for this whole thing to blow up like this, just a few days that i've been running around from one place to another wasting time "going with the flow" and then trying to get rid of the heartache at all costs...
i wonder what will happen...
i think i'll try to get this to work out, i really hope it does, except, i'm already havin second thoughts about it even though it just happened...
I hate sayin this but i gave in to something stupid, which i regretted so much, i think the next day or two i got comfort from someone else, who i don't think really cares about me a whole lot, so when i realized it, again, the next day or two, i found comfort in someone else, i know he really cares about me, i love him too, and i decided to try it out, i don't know if i really care romantically or if maybe this is just a rebound, maybe i just like the fact he really cares about me, and if i really need him i can just talk to him and he and i live in the same city, always talk to each other... and i said yes...
i think this could work out, but i'm scared, i hate myself for thinking this too, i think i said yes to this relationship because i need some help with myself, i need someone to help me with my heart...
and also, i think it was just a solution, so people would stop thinking there was still something goin on between me and aaron, i think, i feel like a hipocrite
it all happened so fast, just a few days for this whole thing to blow up like this, just a few days that i've been running around from one place to another wasting time "going with the flow" and then trying to get rid of the heartache at all costs...
i wonder what will happen...
i think i'll try to get this to work out, i really hope it does, except, i'm already havin second thoughts about it even though it just happened...