change is good.... change is very good
so alot of things have been changing drastically for me. im out of the whole night club scene and to tell you the truth im glad i am. dont get me wrong, i miss everyone that i worked with, but it just wasnt me. i was stressing myself way to much for something that was so temporary to me. yea this job is very very boring, but the other job wasnt healthy. plus my passion for law just keeps growing and growing the more i learn. yea im not in school, but im determined to make something of myself. i just hated how at my old job i was put down, made fun of, talked about etc... if i messed up it wasnt a "its ok no problem" if it was, those people would turn right around and talk about how dumb i was for thinking or doing that. thats not healthy. when i came to this job, i was constantly scared to mess up, but my co-workers were more than supportive in my mistakes and instead of putting me down, they helped me so that i woudnt do it again. i realized my last work environment was very unhealthy, which was a big reflection on MYSELF on how unhealthy i was at the time.
all i have to say... is karma is a bitch. a bitch i actualy like though. :)
still single, not ready to mingle. ive cut my cords with certain people AND ive rekindled some old friendships that im really glad came back to me. it brings me back to high school where things were just a tad more simple.
the people ive lost, i dont have any remorse for. one thinks she's at an age that she wont reach for like 4 or 5 years and the other is obsessed with vanity. i know ive gained a couple of pounds but its not something i well not get depressed about. FYI i dont support anorexia, and anyone who does, and admits it freely to people, are just in it for the attention... there i said it. idiot. once you start eating again, your gonna baloon up. duh!!! EVERYONE knows that, but you.
another thing, if a relationship is over, and HAS been over..... omg get the fuck over it. waa waaa waaa, i wonder what hes doing. women who do that automatically make the rest of us, and notice how i saw US cuz im not one of them. they automatically shed this image on all of us that all woman act and do that. that we are all weak. men if you DO find a woman like that, ew. get away, cuz then your gonna have a "im depressed so if you leave me ill die" but funny enough those are the ones that ALWAYS have bf's hmmmm suckers.
im done.