oh wow
Lol, I got harry potter. I'm excited, I guess.
Ok. Man, I love my family. At least the smart ones. The kaduku ones, fuck them. Unless I'm supposed to love them. So much love and so much lack thereof being yelled at each other. Wow. I don't know.
But my cousin really put it in perspective for me last night, this trip to Guam, no matter what made me realize a whole lot of shit about myself and my family. I used to be the little kid that was just a piece of shit brat, that the older cousins were like "that's just Trent." Now I can kick back drink a beer smoke a joint, and have a bad ass conversation. He told me he's glad I came out this summer. That made me glad I came out this summer.
I don't like to sound dumb, but whatever; he said I can be real, I outgrew how I used to be, and I'm doing alright where I am. I'm happy, at least to a certain point, that I've been able to enjoy the moments that I have with all my family that I was unable to before because of the age/maturity barrier we had before.
I'm not saying I'm one helluva mature adult, cause fuck that, I know I'm immature in senses I don't even realize. But at the same time I know can handle certain situations now that I didn't. My perspective is broader. This real world is a bitch, a lot of shit I don't know.
And I happily accept that.
My dad who says a lot of B.S. not all of it bad, a lot of it funny, whatever, says a lot of the time:
"Life is what happens while you're making other plans."
That's supposed to be John Lennon or Paul McCartney. I don't give a fuck who said it, but that's the truth in a lot of sense.
Man, I can't wait to go back to Vegas. So now I'm gonna attempt to tackle a few more steps that's its gonna take to get me there.
Yeah baby!
Ok. Man, I love my family. At least the smart ones. The kaduku ones, fuck them. Unless I'm supposed to love them. So much love and so much lack thereof being yelled at each other. Wow. I don't know.
But my cousin really put it in perspective for me last night, this trip to Guam, no matter what made me realize a whole lot of shit about myself and my family. I used to be the little kid that was just a piece of shit brat, that the older cousins were like "that's just Trent." Now I can kick back drink a beer smoke a joint, and have a bad ass conversation. He told me he's glad I came out this summer. That made me glad I came out this summer.
I don't like to sound dumb, but whatever; he said I can be real, I outgrew how I used to be, and I'm doing alright where I am. I'm happy, at least to a certain point, that I've been able to enjoy the moments that I have with all my family that I was unable to before because of the age/maturity barrier we had before.
I'm not saying I'm one helluva mature adult, cause fuck that, I know I'm immature in senses I don't even realize. But at the same time I know can handle certain situations now that I didn't. My perspective is broader. This real world is a bitch, a lot of shit I don't know.
And I happily accept that.
My dad who says a lot of B.S. not all of it bad, a lot of it funny, whatever, says a lot of the time:
"Life is what happens while you're making other plans."
That's supposed to be John Lennon or Paul McCartney. I don't give a fuck who said it, but that's the truth in a lot of sense.
Man, I can't wait to go back to Vegas. So now I'm gonna attempt to tackle a few more steps that's its gonna take to get me there.
Yeah baby!