whoa man whoa
I can't tell if it's good to feel as if I'm exploding...nasty ballooning of my stomach and chest...It feels awful and amazing...awful because it's horrible but amazing because it's real
anxious anxious anxious
I need a conclusion to this emotion...it's dangling on a wire...a cliffhanger...something needs to happen to close the book. stop.
my organs are all in loose ends.