Pick it up slowww
Ever have that feeling where you feel hungry and sick at the same time? I do. :(
Umm lets recap. THURSDAY was quite an emotional day. I dont feel like explaining it all so read the previous entrie where i said EDIT and you'll know what im talking about. :)
But yeah. We talked around 7:30ish for about 10 minutes cuz he had to go pick up his uncle..so it wasnt really that deep we just kinda sat in silence.
Watched the OC + American Idol(Bye Bye Mckalya..she was getting annoying.) Anddd then he called back around 9:30 and we talked till almost midnight. he told me how hard it is to talk to me everyday, knowing that im not his girlfriend. he said he's afraid of what might happen in the future, so he doesnt want to get close to me, and part of him doesnt want to be in love. he kept telling me over and over how sorry he was that he'd "fucked things up between us" but honestly i think we needed that talk. i told him not to be sorry for what he felt..and to always be real with me and tell me. he told me he felt bad cuz its the first time he's really hurt my feelings..but strong me didnt cry :) i shed a few tears before that but i didnt cry so go me. cuz im emotional and i usually cry over shit like that cuz yanno im a sap. :) but he told me before that call that when we were on the phone he felt in love with me, but then when we got off he missed me so much that it hurt him to love me. so yeah intense moment right there. I dont want to overwhelm him with my actions because its harder for him then it is for me to show affection when he cant be here, so im not gonna text him/call him as much, and im just gonna let him kind of take control. wish me luck with that <3333333333
But yeah..he went to Jersey this weekend and i told him when he got back we'd talk about it and we'd fix it. and thats what intend to do :)
So enough about that. lets see. Friday I had school till 11 cuz I have double early D..so Danyel decided to skip school and come shopping with me to the auburn mall. its pretty sketchy there but whatever. anywaysss the ride there was pyscho..scary guys rolling down the window and talking to us..and danyel and I in the middle of an intersection with her going "ok tori take a left..no right..no left..no right..wait..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" and covering her face. I stopped the car because I was laughing so hard and all these cars passed us and honked and yelled stuff out the window. i love making friends :)
so we got to the mall and bought Brookelyn something for her bday..then we went shopping ourselves. I got a purse and a belt and a bracelt and she got a shirt and a necklace and a braclet i think :)
Got back to school and picked brookleyn up and then ran some errands while we waited for chi chi's to open :) we went all around town..and me being me i always have to race people when theres a red light and im side by side with a car..does anyone else do that? haha. so yeah we went to china rose..made a huge scene and counted pennies (litterally) because we were so low on money that we used all we had. afterwards we went to the cooks corner mall + walked around and talked to people. at the red light i raced this guy, who then proceeded to talk to us. he was cute until brookelyn goes "TORI HE HAS A RECEEDING HAIR LINE" which i dont think was true but whatever lmao.
afterwards we drove thru neighborhoods and played horn beep and then i got home around 8ish.
got nice message online <3 :) and then took out my braids and went to bed.
TODAY
had to get up early to get my hair done. it looks good but its too fucking short and im pissed. seriously im so mad i almost cried. i want it a little bit past my shoulders and its like down to my chin. ugh. everyone says it looks cute but i dont like it. i guess i have to get used to it. :(
Umm then i went to the mall and got some shoes..then came back here and napped.
now im chillan. happy easter to everyone :) peace outt <3
Umm lets recap. THURSDAY was quite an emotional day. I dont feel like explaining it all so read the previous entrie where i said EDIT and you'll know what im talking about. :)
But yeah. We talked around 7:30ish for about 10 minutes cuz he had to go pick up his uncle..so it wasnt really that deep we just kinda sat in silence.
Watched the OC + American Idol(Bye Bye Mckalya..she was getting annoying.) Anddd then he called back around 9:30 and we talked till almost midnight. he told me how hard it is to talk to me everyday, knowing that im not his girlfriend. he said he's afraid of what might happen in the future, so he doesnt want to get close to me, and part of him doesnt want to be in love. he kept telling me over and over how sorry he was that he'd "fucked things up between us" but honestly i think we needed that talk. i told him not to be sorry for what he felt..and to always be real with me and tell me. he told me he felt bad cuz its the first time he's really hurt my feelings..but strong me didnt cry :) i shed a few tears before that but i didnt cry so go me. cuz im emotional and i usually cry over shit like that cuz yanno im a sap. :) but he told me before that call that when we were on the phone he felt in love with me, but then when we got off he missed me so much that it hurt him to love me. so yeah intense moment right there. I dont want to overwhelm him with my actions because its harder for him then it is for me to show affection when he cant be here, so im not gonna text him/call him as much, and im just gonna let him kind of take control. wish me luck with that <3333333333
But yeah..he went to Jersey this weekend and i told him when he got back we'd talk about it and we'd fix it. and thats what intend to do :)
So enough about that. lets see. Friday I had school till 11 cuz I have double early D..so Danyel decided to skip school and come shopping with me to the auburn mall. its pretty sketchy there but whatever. anywaysss the ride there was pyscho..scary guys rolling down the window and talking to us..and danyel and I in the middle of an intersection with her going "ok tori take a left..no right..no left..no right..wait..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" and covering her face. I stopped the car because I was laughing so hard and all these cars passed us and honked and yelled stuff out the window. i love making friends :)
so we got to the mall and bought Brookelyn something for her bday..then we went shopping ourselves. I got a purse and a belt and a bracelt and she got a shirt and a necklace and a braclet i think :)
Got back to school and picked brookleyn up and then ran some errands while we waited for chi chi's to open :) we went all around town..and me being me i always have to race people when theres a red light and im side by side with a car..does anyone else do that? haha. so yeah we went to china rose..made a huge scene and counted pennies (litterally) because we were so low on money that we used all we had. afterwards we went to the cooks corner mall + walked around and talked to people. at the red light i raced this guy, who then proceeded to talk to us. he was cute until brookelyn goes "TORI HE HAS A RECEEDING HAIR LINE" which i dont think was true but whatever lmao.
afterwards we drove thru neighborhoods and played horn beep and then i got home around 8ish.
got nice message online <3 :) and then took out my braids and went to bed.
TODAY
had to get up early to get my hair done. it looks good but its too fucking short and im pissed. seriously im so mad i almost cried. i want it a little bit past my shoulders and its like down to my chin. ugh. everyone says it looks cute but i dont like it. i guess i have to get used to it. :(
Umm then i went to the mall and got some shoes..then came back here and napped.
now im chillan. happy easter to everyone :) peace outt <3