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this was my plan. go away on vacation. get a tan, and a dress that wouldn't be quite like anyone elses. go to my grad with my hair and nails done and look almost totally unrecognizable. be pretty for a change. and be special, with my new dress and appearance. i was almost looking forward to it, because i went so far to get my things, and i was sure no one else would have anything just quite like them, so it would be kinda special. now, i say almost looking forward to it because well....its not really me, but its a change, and its supposed to be a good one, even if it does only last for a few hours.
now whats wrong with my plan you ask? well, i'm really not looking that forward to it anymore. why? because of my dress. my dress? the one i actually liked? the one i picked, out of hundreds? the one i looked everywhere to find? guess what? i experienced every teen girls nightmare. someone else has it. and its someone not even graduating.
now, it might not seem like much to some people, but for some reason, i am REALLY disappointed. and i don't even like dresses. no offence to her now, because i love her to death and she had no idea and feels bad enough about it, but i'm sad. i didn't think i'd get sad over something like that, but i am. :(
but.
i'll still go and get my hair and nails done and have my tan, and hold my head high. i'll wear my dress too. my dress that is the same as someone elses. i guess the only thing now is that.... i just won't be that special anymore. *sigh*
now whats wrong with my plan you ask? well, i'm really not looking that forward to it anymore. why? because of my dress. my dress? the one i actually liked? the one i picked, out of hundreds? the one i looked everywhere to find? guess what? i experienced every teen girls nightmare. someone else has it. and its someone not even graduating.
now, it might not seem like much to some people, but for some reason, i am REALLY disappointed. and i don't even like dresses. no offence to her now, because i love her to death and she had no idea and feels bad enough about it, but i'm sad. i didn't think i'd get sad over something like that, but i am. :(
but.
i'll still go and get my hair and nails done and have my tan, and hold my head high. i'll wear my dress too. my dress that is the same as someone elses. i guess the only thing now is that.... i just won't be that special anymore. *sigh*