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[felixtheknob]

so yeah
i just got home
my mother is in the hospital right now...
they wnat her to stay for the weekend
i cried so much today none even knows

i love my mom..
noone evn knows how much i love her
shes the only perosn i ahve ever loved this much EVER
and i cannot handle teh thought of ehr dying...
and thats exactly whats shes doing..
slowly but steadily
it horrifies me
im so scared right now
so so so scared

all i want right now is to ahve someone come down here and just hold me in their arms becuase im so afarid and i so need some support becuase i honestly do not have the strength to handle this
all i want is for someone to be here with me tonight
to let me fall asleep in their arms
but who the fuck would do that

i should go to sleep...im going back to the hospital in the morning

im just so afraid

FATHER PLEASE! IF YOU DECIDE TO NEVER LISTEN TO ME I CAN LIVE WIHT THAT
BUT I BEG YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART LORD JUST PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HEAL HER
IM BEGGING YOU
DONT TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME JUST YET
IM BEGGING YOU
I LOVE HER SO MUCH
DONT TAKE HER AWAY
please

kate