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I'm becoming really confused about alot of things.
I realize that as much as I thought I did, I dont understand boys AT ALL. I use to think I wanted to spend my life with Danny and now that were not together and I've actually come to terms with that that might not be true, he tells me that he wants me back and everything. I just want an easy button to tell me what I should do. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm a different person now that I'm not with him and I can't help but believe them. They say I am a happier person that I haven't been in years. And its not even that I want to be back together with him because right now, I'm not. But he makes it so hard for me not to tell him things like I love him and stuff. He doesn't even want to just be friends and he won't give me the space I need. When I tell him that I want to see other people he argees but then makes me promise not to do anything with them. Those are expectations that he really has no room asking me to meet. When it comes to other boys...don't even get me started. I would be here for hours trying to work out how I feel and everything about them.
When it comes to school, half my classes are going good and then I have those that aren't. My PSY class, FAILING. At least he drops the lowest 5 tests and I have extra credit. I have no idea about my BIO class. I'm doing good in the lab but the class it self not so much. He grades things weird. He'll say, this is the answer to the question and if you have this you'll get extra points. But then I'll have it all right, and only get half the points. I'm doing great in my history class I have an A! I'm doing good in Business, I have a B. PSC is weird, he grades on tests and 1 paper. He grades the tests hard so I dont know.
The sorority situation is going good. Formal is saturday. I'm really excited for it. I hope I have a ton of fun! I really can't wait for it. I can't wait for Greek week. I'm in a event so I think it will be fun.
My family life is going a little rocky. I don't really talk to my mom alot. Shes really always spaced out when I do talk to her. My grandma is doing really good since her surgery. Now I hope she can sell the house and all that good stuff.
My friends and are kind off and on as well. I'm not the best friend as I could be. Lately all it is with me is stupid stuff and I feel really bad. If you understand where I'm coming from, yell at me so that I can focus on being a better friend. I don't do it on purpose it just happens.
I realize that as much as I thought I did, I dont understand boys AT ALL. I use to think I wanted to spend my life with Danny and now that were not together and I've actually come to terms with that that might not be true, he tells me that he wants me back and everything. I just want an easy button to tell me what I should do. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm a different person now that I'm not with him and I can't help but believe them. They say I am a happier person that I haven't been in years. And its not even that I want to be back together with him because right now, I'm not. But he makes it so hard for me not to tell him things like I love him and stuff. He doesn't even want to just be friends and he won't give me the space I need. When I tell him that I want to see other people he argees but then makes me promise not to do anything with them. Those are expectations that he really has no room asking me to meet. When it comes to other boys...don't even get me started. I would be here for hours trying to work out how I feel and everything about them.
When it comes to school, half my classes are going good and then I have those that aren't. My PSY class, FAILING. At least he drops the lowest 5 tests and I have extra credit. I have no idea about my BIO class. I'm doing good in the lab but the class it self not so much. He grades things weird. He'll say, this is the answer to the question and if you have this you'll get extra points. But then I'll have it all right, and only get half the points. I'm doing great in my history class I have an A! I'm doing good in Business, I have a B. PSC is weird, he grades on tests and 1 paper. He grades the tests hard so I dont know.
The sorority situation is going good. Formal is saturday. I'm really excited for it. I hope I have a ton of fun! I really can't wait for it. I can't wait for Greek week. I'm in a event so I think it will be fun.
My family life is going a little rocky. I don't really talk to my mom alot. Shes really always spaced out when I do talk to her. My grandma is doing really good since her surgery. Now I hope she can sell the house and all that good stuff.
My friends and are kind off and on as well. I'm not the best friend as I could be. Lately all it is with me is stupid stuff and I feel really bad. If you understand where I'm coming from, yell at me so that I can focus on being a better friend. I don't do it on purpose it just happens.