Mirror snippetfelisblancoFebruary 7 2010, 14:49:53 UTC
He wakes up to someone stroking his hair and when he opens his eyes Jared is sitting on the edge of the bed, watching him with worried eyes.
“Hey,” he says, and then, “I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” Jensen mumbles, too sleepy to remember why he’s in bed in the first place.
Jared sighs. “Do you know you always say that when you’re absolutely miserable about something? I’m sorry I left and I’m sorry about the passive aggressive thing. I know you don’t mean it like that. It’s just really frustrating when you shut me out like that.”
“What passive aggressive thing?” Jensen asks confused and then hurt when he realizes what Jared is saying. “You think I’m passive aggressive?”
“Didn’t you hear a word of what I said?” Jared’s got that worried look in his eyes again. “Where do you go? It’s like sometimes you’re here but you’re not really here at all. It kinda scares me.”
“I don’t know.” He rubs one hand over his face. “Where did you go?”
Jared shifts, looking uncomfortable. “Just drove around a bit and then I called my mom, telling her maybe they shouldn’t come.”
Oh crap. “Dude, no. I’m sorry I was such a douche. Call her back and tell her you’d love to have them. Better yet, fly down there for the break. I’m ok. Really.”
“You’re not ok, Jen. I worry about you.” Jared climbs into the bed and curls up beside him, slinging one arm around his waist. “And I don’t want to sleep alone either.”
They lie in silence for a while. “You could put them up in a hotel,” Jensen suggests finally. “Another hotel. Far from this one or yours.”
‘I could do that,” Jared agrees hesitantly. “I think you might be right though.”
“About what?”
“About them finding out if they see us together. My mom is very observant. She already thinks I’m hiding something and I’m pretty sure she’ll notice the way I look at you.”
“Oh.”
“I know…” Jared swallows. “I know we decided not to tell anyone but… Jen, it’s my mom. It’s my mama, Jen.”
Jensen sighs. He doesn’t need to look at Jared to know he’s got tears in his eyes and probably a wobbly lip as well. “Ok.”
Jared goes absolutely still beside him. “What?”
His heart is hammering in his chest but he just loves Jared too much to do this to him. “Tell her. You can tell her. It’s ok.”
“Hey,” he says, and then, “I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” Jensen mumbles, too sleepy to remember why he’s in bed in the first place.
Jared sighs. “Do you know you always say that when you’re absolutely miserable about something? I’m sorry I left and I’m sorry about the passive aggressive thing. I know you don’t mean it like that. It’s just really frustrating when you shut me out like that.”
“What passive aggressive thing?” Jensen asks confused and then hurt when he realizes what Jared is saying. “You think I’m passive aggressive?”
“Didn’t you hear a word of what I said?” Jared’s got that worried look in his eyes again. “Where do you go? It’s like sometimes you’re here but you’re not really here at all. It kinda scares me.”
“I don’t know.” He rubs one hand over his face. “Where did you go?”
Jared shifts, looking uncomfortable. “Just drove around a bit and then I called my mom, telling her maybe they shouldn’t come.”
Oh crap. “Dude, no. I’m sorry I was such a douche. Call her back and tell her you’d love to have them. Better yet, fly down there for the break. I’m ok. Really.”
“You’re not ok, Jen. I worry about you.” Jared climbs into the bed and curls up beside him, slinging one arm around his waist. “And I don’t want to sleep alone either.”
They lie in silence for a while. “You could put them up in a hotel,” Jensen suggests finally. “Another hotel. Far from this one or yours.”
‘I could do that,” Jared agrees hesitantly. “I think you might be right though.”
“About what?”
“About them finding out if they see us together. My mom is very observant. She already thinks I’m hiding something and I’m pretty sure she’ll notice the way I look at you.”
“Oh.”
“I know…” Jared swallows. “I know we decided not to tell anyone but… Jen, it’s my mom. It’s my mama, Jen.”
Jensen sighs. He doesn’t need to look at Jared to know he’s got tears in his eyes and probably a wobbly lip as well. “Ok.”
Jared goes absolutely still beside him. “What?”
His heart is hammering in his chest but he just loves Jared too much to do this to him. “Tell her. You can tell her. It’s ok.”
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