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The story is kicking my ass at the moment and it's making me kinda antisocial so sorry about that. Wasting time staring at the damn cursor blinking at me while my brain does an impression of the Antarctica, empty wasteland as far as the eye can see, is really depressing, especially since I'm only getting a few morning hours here and there to work on it and not being able to use them is just so damn frustrating. *sighs*
I think this is one of those stories that will not be done when it's done. Like there are so many scenes and little things I want to include and if I do I will be writing this until the end of time. So it's a big possibility that I'll do some snippets and flashbacks or something later which will possibly make their way into the final going-for-public version, if I decide it's good enough to go for that.
Thing is, as a movie you can add little things and scenes and they only take seconds but still tell so much. Writing them down on the other hand can take pages upon pages upon pages... *sighs*
I'm at around 120.000 now, I think. Maybe 118.000. Taking this and the novel and the Mirror fic and Stretch Right Up and it's probably more words than I usually write in TWO years. And still I feel like a failure because I haven't posted anything worthwhile in so long and so I have nothing to show for it. *sighs*
Also I've discovered once again that I'm a sore loser. I was nominated and didn't win and now I'm pouting. lol So pathetic, especially since I hardly mentioned it here but I couldn't really see a way of doing that and NOT make it look like begging for votes so... Like I said, pathetic. I think it's because it was my Mirror fic and I've never been as proud of anything as that so for the first time ever I'm letting it affect me, not winning. *is five* *rolls eyes at self*
I think this is one of those stories that will not be done when it's done. Like there are so many scenes and little things I want to include and if I do I will be writing this until the end of time. So it's a big possibility that I'll do some snippets and flashbacks or something later which will possibly make their way into the final going-for-public version, if I decide it's good enough to go for that.
Thing is, as a movie you can add little things and scenes and they only take seconds but still tell so much. Writing them down on the other hand can take pages upon pages upon pages... *sighs*
I'm at around 120.000 now, I think. Maybe 118.000. Taking this and the novel and the Mirror fic and Stretch Right Up and it's probably more words than I usually write in TWO years. And still I feel like a failure because I haven't posted anything worthwhile in so long and so I have nothing to show for it. *sighs*
Also I've discovered once again that I'm a sore loser. I was nominated and didn't win and now I'm pouting. lol So pathetic, especially since I hardly mentioned it here but I couldn't really see a way of doing that and NOT make it look like begging for votes so... Like I said, pathetic. I think it's because it was my Mirror fic and I've never been as proud of anything as that so for the first time ever I'm letting it affect me, not winning. *is five* *rolls eyes at self*