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My dad passed away around half past 9 last night. He went peacefully after spending the last day mostly sleeping. Just before we left him, around 6 pm, I talked to him, told him not to worry about us, we were okay and it was time for him to leave. Then I kissed him good night. I want to believe he heard me because his heart was still beating regularly and strongly and his breathing was even and unlabored so they were a bit surprised when he died so shortly after.
I'm sad but I am also so relieved that it didn't take longer and that he died before I had to leave on Monday. We went to see him this morning and he looked so peaceful. Then we spent 2 1/2 hours at the funeral home, making arrangements, and I was completely exhausted after and had to take a nap. I only slept 5 hours last night. Two of his wife's daughters are here now, we're gonna eat sushi and have a nice evening. Her third daughter had a baby on Wednesday by C-section, 5 hours away, so she can't come down. And yesterday was both my son's and my sister's daughter's birthday. So we decided not to tell them until today and say he went during the night. The funeral won't be until a month from now, there's the baby, the holidays, us having to travel over from Iceland, and my brother has finals the first week of January. It feels a bit weird waiting so long but I think it's the easiest solution for everyone.
It's damn hard being away from mr Felis and my kids at such an emotional time, but I'm still glad I'm here. But I'll also be so glad to get home on Monday and be able to hug my kids and cry on mr Felis's shoulder.
One other thing, I was going to do LJ Xmas cards this year but then this happened and now I just can't think about that anymore, it will be too late anyway when I at last come home. So we'll do them next year, ok?
Thank you all, who have left me comments and messages. They're so very much appreciated. *hugs you all*
I'm sad but I am also so relieved that it didn't take longer and that he died before I had to leave on Monday. We went to see him this morning and he looked so peaceful. Then we spent 2 1/2 hours at the funeral home, making arrangements, and I was completely exhausted after and had to take a nap. I only slept 5 hours last night. Two of his wife's daughters are here now, we're gonna eat sushi and have a nice evening. Her third daughter had a baby on Wednesday by C-section, 5 hours away, so she can't come down. And yesterday was both my son's and my sister's daughter's birthday. So we decided not to tell them until today and say he went during the night. The funeral won't be until a month from now, there's the baby, the holidays, us having to travel over from Iceland, and my brother has finals the first week of January. It feels a bit weird waiting so long but I think it's the easiest solution for everyone.
It's damn hard being away from mr Felis and my kids at such an emotional time, but I'm still glad I'm here. But I'll also be so glad to get home on Monday and be able to hug my kids and cry on mr Felis's shoulder.
One other thing, I was going to do LJ Xmas cards this year but then this happened and now I just can't think about that anymore, it will be too late anyway when I at last come home. So we'll do them next year, ok?
Thank you all, who have left me comments and messages. They're so very much appreciated. *hugs you all*