Fic: Gunpoint. AU RPS. Jensen/Jared. Lyrics
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1. Lost in the Light / Dikta
So long my fallen friends and foes
A final fight dropped to the floor
In thousand pieces, pushed and pulled
A paradox, with a plan for the poor
A ten year old stands tall and talks
And tries his best to tell us his tale
Of shadows, hurt and spiteful sins
And summers spent hiding his trail
Open yourself to him
One more time, one last time (on your own, on your own)
This time you‘ll go for it
Stop it all, end it all
In spite of searching for your soul
A final fight dropped to the floor
In thousand pieces, waiting
For anything to pull you apart
But you never made your move
Petrified, paralyzed, poisoned by fear
And praying for help
2. Blues From a Gun / Sugar Ray
I want to watch the world cry
I couldn't open my eyes
I almost spoke but can't speak
Still being shelled all those lies
Blues from a gun
I'm not the only one
I've been fooled
They got me on the run
I've tried hard
Everything's been done
I've been fooled from blues from a gun
I start to watch the world crumble
I had to open my eyes
I start to run but I stumble
They stole the blue from the sky
Blues from a gun
I'm not the only one
I've been fooled
They got me on the run
I've tried hard
Everything's been done
I've been fooled from blues from a gun
Tears today in a way
Fears today won't go away
Blues from a gun
I'm not the only one
I've been fooled
They got me on the run
I've tried hard
Everything's been done
I've been fooled from blues from a gun
Whenever I turn around
I'm lost and I can't be found
Whenever I turn around
I'm lost and I can't be found
All these graces flying in the air now
Look at it fall, look at it fall
All these graces flying in the air now
Look at it fall
Look at it fall
Look at it fall
3. Shoreline / Anna Ternheim
Ever since I was eight or nine
I've been standing on the shoreline
Always waiting
For something lasting
Loose your hunger, you loose your way
Get confused and you fade away
Oh this town
Kills you when you are young
Oh this town
Kills you when you are young
I'm not the boy I used to be
This town has got the youth of me
All eyes turn hollow
From the work of sorrow
Standing on the paving
By the office building
They've got so much to do
Never time for you
We are shadows
Oh we're shadows
Shadows in the alley
You die when you're young
You die when you're young
You die when you're young
4. Bring Down Like I / Anna Ternheim
Forever lost in 90 days
From early March till late in May
Then I pulled out in a day
To catch my breath some place far away
All to say farewell for now
No one brings you down like I
All to say farewell for now
No one brings you down like I
Tomorrow morning set me free
For many nights you'll never sleep
When I'm far from reaching out of sight
Enough to get me on my high tonight
All to say farewell for now
No one brings you down like I
All to say farewell for now
No one brings you down like I
Forever lost in 90 days
From early March till late in May
Farewell for now, farewell for now, farewell
All to say no one brings you down like I
All to say farewell for now
No one brings you down like I do
5. Never Look Back / Zach Berkman
You wish you could bend but then you just break,
You reach for your keys, now you're driving away.
You can't hear your thoughts for the sound of the rain,
And you hope that you'll never get back here again.
And we become who we are when we fall apart,
So don't you want to..
Start a new day, let yourself go,
'Cause your head seems to know this is right,
But your heart isn't sure.
And crash like a wave,
'Cause a wave needs to crash.
Don't be afraid, just get on the train,
Take your ride off the tracks,
And never look back.
And now you can say what you needed to say,
And that's just a risk you're willing to take.
Your friends they're all jaded and cynical,
But you'll find the answers; I think that you already know.
And we become who we are when we fall in love,
So don't you want to..
Start a new day, let yourself go,
'Cause your head seems to know this is right,
But your heart isn't sure.
And crash like a wave,
'Cause a wave needs to crash.
Don't be afraid, just get on the train,
Take your ride off the tracks,
And never look back, never look back,
And never look back, and never look back.
And we become who we are when we fall in love,
So don't you want to, don't you want to..
Start a new day, let yourself go,
'Cause your head seems to know this is right,
But your heart isn't sure.
And crash like a wave,
'Cause a wave needs to crash.
Don't be afraid, just get on the train,
Take your ride off the tracks.
And never look back,
Never look back.
6. Someone Else's Life / Joshua Radin
Somehow
I'm leading someone else's life
I cut a star down with my knife
And right now
I still see the way the moon
Plays this tune
Though our lights died.
My hands shake
My knees quake
It's every day
The same way.
Cos then came you.
Then there's you.
I keep your picture
In my worn through shoes.
Then there's you.
Then came you.
When I'm lost,
I look at my picture of you.
And somehow
I'll make tonight our own
I'll show you every way I've grown
Since I met you
And right now
I'll be the boy in your next song
I'll learn the parts and play along
If you let me.
My hands shake
My knees quake
It's every day
The same way.
Cos then came you.
Then there's you.
I keep your picture
In my worn through shoes.
Then there's you.
Then came you.
When I'm lost,
I look at my picture of you.
If you let me,
I'll show the world to you.
Yes, if you let me,
I'll know just what to do.
Cos then came you.
Then there's you.
I keep your picture
In my worn through shoes.
When I'm lost
In your eyes
I see a way for me
7. Ten Years Later / Collective Soul
Lack of knowledge has a source (oh boy)
Still my thoughts must run their course (oh yeah)
And they do
Does my memory comfort you
While your eyes see me through
Well it's 10 years later and still I haven't a clue
Oh I'm crying
Caution breathes a lonely breath (oh boy)
Love withstands but time must rest (oh yeah)
And it does
Does my memory comfort you
While your eyes see me through
Well it's 10 years later and still I haven't a clue
Oh I'm crying
Does my memory comfort you
While your eyes see me through
Well it's 10 years later and still I haven't a clue
Oh it's 10 years later
8. You and I / Garou
Well, I'm starting the day
Trying to find different ways to get through
Till it's time to come back
And I can't slow it down
And I'm climbing the walls
And I feel like I'm under attack
There's too many people that get in my way
And there's never a right time that I get to say
When you and I touch hands when you and I stop
Still in the moment it's you and I
Not running for something that's already gone
When it's just you and I that's when I'm home
That's when I'm home
There's always the question what's holding me down
Show me an answer cause I haven't found
A way to escape to get out of it all
Somewhere that I am allowed to fall
With no bones to break I can be who I am
Cause you know me better than anyone
When you and I touch hands when you and I stop
Still in the moment it's you and I
Not running for something that's already gone
When it's just you and I that's when I'm home
That's when I'm home
Home's not a house with windows
And walls not a place to be shut in
There are no doors
And no matter where I come to rest
Your arms will be my safety net
9. The Boy's Gone / Jason Mraz
The boy's gone. The boy's gone home.
What will happen to a face in the crowd when it finally gets too crowded.
And what will happen to the origins of sound after all the sounds have sounded
Well I hope I never have to see that day but by god I know it's headed our way
So I better be happy now that the boy's going home. The boy's gone home.
And what becomes of a day for those who rage against it
And who will sum up the phrase for all left standing around in it
Well I suppose we'll all make our judgement call
We'll walk it alone, stand up tall, then march to the fall
So we better be happy now that we'll all go home.
Be so happy with the way you are
Be so happy that you made it this far
Go on be happy now. Please be happy now
Because this is something else
this is something else
I tried to live my life and live it so well
But when it's all over is it heaven or is it hell
I better be happy now that no one can tell, nobody knows
I'm gonna be happy with the way that I am
I'm gonna be happy with all that I stand for
I'm gonna be happy now because the boy's going home.
The boy's gone home.
10. Feels So Good / Hera
I'm about to go where nobody goes
and you're about to be where nobody's been
and it's about to seem impossibly real.
and it feels so good, it feels so good
it feels so good.
I'm about to show what nobody shows,
and you're about to see what nobody's seen,
and I'm about to give what I've never given you before...
and it feels so good, it feels so good
it feels so good.
Are we going to do what's never been done?
and are we going to meet the moon or the sun?
I wonder if you ah... ahhh do you understand?
and it feels so good, it feels so good
it feels so good.
And now we've done what nobody does,
and now we've been where nobody goes
and oh, oh, oh... it feels so good!
and it feels so good, it feels so good
it feels so good.
11. To Be Gone / Anna Ternheim
Leave the body leave the mind
Leave the body leave the mind
Every promise every place behind
I just happen to feel so alone
For today for all days to come
I just wanna be wanna be gone
I just wanna be wanna be gone
Leave the quiet leave the night
Leave the quiet leave the night
Broken feelings of dreams out of sight
Pictures in your head at night
For tonight for all nights to come
Erased for good and always gone
Erased for good and always gone
Leave the city leave the cold
Leave the city leave the cold
Young people far too old
Let me cross a very fine line
For today for a lifetime
For today for a lifetime
Leave the body leave the mind
Let me
Leave the body leave the mind
Every promise every place behind
I just happen to feel so alone
For today for all days to come
For today for all days to come
I just wanna be wanna be gone
12. The Fight Song / Ane Brun
I'm gonna fight
This fight
And try to get out of here
And I'm going in with my life
To make sure that you'll disappear
And I will mount you
Press my knees on both sides
And you will let me
Let me, let me ride
And if you don't then I won't
Leave you galloping in my national park
I'll track you down
'Cause I know
Every corner of this countryside
And I will mount you
Press my knees on both sides
And you will let me
Let me, let me ride
I'll pull your mane
As hard as I can
Stick my fingers in your mouth with my cramped-up hand
Until you stop
Then I'll try to get off
Still I'm hanging in your body parts
And even though you are ten Goliaths
I'll hold
I'll hold at least your head
And as I rest on my wounded left
I'll kick you randomly in the chest
And I'll show you how ribs can capture air
And leave unbearable pressure
And when you're down
I'll lay beside you
I'll catch the remaining glimmer in your eyes
And then later
I'll ask you
As my last and final rescue
Now you know
Tell me why
And then I'll let you
I'll let you ride
Now you know
Tell me why
And I'll let you
Let you, let you ride
13. War Hero / Biggi Hilmars
After all
you’ve gone through
It’s truly amazing
that you’re still around
Through darkness of wars
Across rocky shores
You’ve been to hell and back
faced life’s closing doors
Despite all the wait
and your enemy’s hate
You kept your hopes up
and held onto your faith
In the grey battlefields
You lost all your shields
But somehow you never
lost faith in yourself
After all
you’ve gone through
It’s truly amazing
that you’re still around
14. The Fear You Won't Fall / Joshua Radin
Digging a hole
And the walls are caving in behind me
Air's getting thin
But I'm trying, I'm breathing in
Come find me
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home
Before you
And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
But I thought I could, can't get my mind off of you
I know you're scared that soon I'll be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you
Is the fear you won't fall
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home
Before you
And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
But I thought I could, can't get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
I thought being alone
Was better than, was better than
And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
But I thought I could, can't get my mind off of you
15. David / Dikta
This is where it all began
What a piece of work is man
He stands with no spine
And no one else can say to me
It's over now, you changed the sea
Because the passenger is all mine
If you fall and lose it all
Just leave it alone
'Cause if I fall and lose it all
I'll throw the first stone
I tried to get him out of there
I pushed and shoved and pulled his hair
He sat there and stared
Forever and a day it takes
To make me learn from my mistakes
Over and over, I'm not prepared
But misery loves company
When he is here I'm less lonely
Where else can I turn when I'm betrayed?
But worst of all is finding out
Being sure and beyond any doubt
That I am the one who cannot be saved
It breaks my heart to feel it start
He grabs the wheel but now I feel
I'm here with no fear
My oldest friend
Let's not pretend
I'll never listen again
I'll never fall and lose it all
I left it alone
I'll never fall and lose it all
I don't have the stone
16. The Past Is Not For Real / Britta Persson
Swallow once
Throw upon
You and then
Swallow again
The past is not for real
In my throat
No sound grows
My mistakes
Show in your face
The past is not for real
How lucky for me
I'm a thief
Strength as steel
If I could
Give back, I would
The past is not for real
We'll be found
Underground
See you there
If you dare
The past is not for real
How lucky for me
17. Terrified / Anna Ternheim
No one I’d rather be with than you
We never say the word, but our eyes always do
My head explodes and my mind’s a mess
And I’m dying to move like young boys do
No one I’d rather be with than you
Away with the bothers, the saddest of news
Sober or not, high or down below myself
You know the days when nothing flows
You see me
Like no one
Saw me before
This part terrifies me so…
No one makes me free like you make me
I speak my mind, I’m honest and cruel
I layout my cards
I’m a joke
I’m a fool
But the beast in me
Sleeps oh so peacefully
Oh so peacefully…
You see me
Like no one
Saw me before
18. Save No Goodbyes / Anna Ternheim
Save no picture
No white letter
Give me no reason to care
Moving far away
From the memory
Feels like walking on air
Save no goodbyes
Leave words out
No, you won't get me down
I could not let you
Keep one part of me
Always pinned to the ground
Save your goodbyes
Leave the words out
No, you won't get me down
Not a shot like the one you just fired
Then something would die
The mad longing for understanding your mind
I'll never give up
Time rushes so fast why only no wake
when you look back
Save your goodbyes
Leave the words out
No, you won't get me down
Not a shot like the one you just fired
Then something would die
19. In Spite of Me / Dikta
Been thrown into the part
and don't know where to start
It takes a while to learn your lines by heart
And suddenly I see
my part was meant to be
I hope it never ends in spite of me
It's strange how things collide
Relax, enjoy the ride
It takes us where we both belong inside
I see it in your eyes
This comes as a surprise
Don't look down, we're in the skies
I'm hoping for the best
I'm hoping to have you
I'm waiting for the rest
I'm waiting just for you
Trust me when I say
Trust me when I see it's all okay
Trust me for today
I promise you we'll find some other way.
It's easy to repent
at least to some extent
Take your time and talk to your hearts content
And soon enough you'll see
we're both holding the key
to writing our own history
I'm hoping for the best
I'm hoping to review (have you?)
I'm waiting for the rest
I'm waiting just for you
Trust me when I say
Trust me when I say it's all okay
Trust me for today
I promise you we'll find some other way.
Look into my eyes
I am in your corner
Through all the lows and highs
Trust me when I say
Trust me when I say it's all okay
Trust me for today
I promise you we'll find some other way.
20. More Than This / Fire Flies
There must have been a spark of hope
Some sort of heaven that was grounded, grounded
A severed piece of human rope
A perfect love that must be sounded, sounded
The sunrise bursting through your skin
Ten thousand winters could've melted, melted
I never knew there could be more than, more than
I never dreamed there could be more than, more than
To change the future with a single kiss
I never knew there could be more than this
Everyone turn on the news
Earth is changing, so let's stay out, stay out
In a hell of bolts and screws
Someone finally shows a way out, way out
I never knew there could be more than, more than
I never dreamed there could be more than, more than
To change the future with a single kiss
I never knew there could be more than this
Say anything at all, love
Today is just a glitch in time
Sending shivers through our spines
I never knew there could be more than, more than
I never dreamed there could be more than, more than
To change the future with a single kiss
I never knew there could be more than
I never knew there could be more than, more than
I never dreamed there could be more than, more than
To change the future with a single kiss
I never knew there could be more than this